I’m so lonely
Basically what the title says.
Also it’s a bit of a rant plus a cry for help so I apologise for the long post.
I live in a small town in Australia and I can’t afford to move right now.
I have tried going to whatever groups or places that are available in my area and I have made three friends over the past 12 months (not all at once but spread across the year) but after a few months they each ghosted me.
Yes I have tried all the bog standard suggestions i get from google.
I’m sure it partially has to do with the fact that I have depression and while I do genuinely feel like I do a good job of not letting it impact my friendships I’m sure it shows up from time to time and I wouldn’t be surprised if it scared people away because depression sucks for anyone.
I guess what I was wondering is how do I make friends now, I feel like I’ve exhausted all local avenues and ideally I’d like local people I can hangout with or people willing to hangout regularly?
I’d like a friend who isn’t scared of my depression because I know I can have lots of fun with people but I also need people who are kind and understanding too.
I want people willing to join or let me join in their interests too and someone who won’t ghost me.
I really value people who care about me and really make an effort, not as in spending money but just remembering things like my birthday or not making me be the one to reach out to talk or hangout because it’s an annoyance when the friendship is one sided.
I also would like a partner too but that’s even harder to find, I’ve only ever dated one person and that’s it.
I don’t know if this is an autism thing, I assume it is but I just seem to really suck at making friends even though I crave close connections with people so much.
Feel free to comment advice or whatever you want, I’m just struggling and pretty tired for trying so much for so long and don’t know what the next options are.
WHAT DO I DOOOOOO T-T !?