I feel like I'm in a horrible nightmare and it won't stop
About a year ago out of the blue at work I started vomiting all the time, then I was getting super lightheaded and fainting, I had to quit my job. It goes worse after that. I could hardly function, coffee just to shower, severe brain fog.
I saw a doctor about it, he said my heart rate was way too high and put me on propranolol, it helped me a little bit. I went to see a heart specialist and he said absolutely nothing was wrong with me. Maybe try compression clothes and electrolytes.
I just mostly suffered in silence after that. But i hardly do anything these days. Everything I used to enjoy feels so out of reach. The workouts I loved make me so incredibly dizzy, doing my makeup is a chore...not a hobby. I just lay in bed and cry...or read...or look out my window. I only drive on my good days when my mind feels fully aware. I've been smoking to cope with this new reality...which isnt helping...but its making life more manageable...but it's probably making it worse.
Nobody really knows how much a struggle, I'm called lazy more often than not. I feel so stuck...I don't know what's wrong with me, I've tried supplements, vitamins, I've spent so much money...and to an extent...I've given up. But it feels like one day I'm gonna wake up and this will all be a bad dream.
If anyone has advice...please let me know...I'm really having a hard time.