I have made posts, venting and talking about myself and how depressed and lonely I've been and how much I hate myself, but I end up deleting them the next or even on the same day because I hate talking about my feelings.
I'm tired of feeling this way, I want to start lifting again. I want to start taking care of myself again and going out and having fun. I want to make more and more friends. I want to look good and get my confidence back. I even want to start wearing good outfits instead of dressing like a bum and wearing the same fits every week.
I'll stop feeling like shit and I'm going to fucking do something about it so I can put a stop to myself in a miserable loop every day, I will become happier and I will most certainly become better for myself.