Quitting / questions
So I’ve been on 70h consistently for a year, the last 8 months have been around 1000mg a day. I know that’s a lot, I had a bad tbi with brain damage and started self medicating with kratom extracts 3-4 years ago and never had issues and then this shit came out. I tried to cold turkey it and ended up in the emergency room, I’m on day 4 of no 70h but I’m sadly taking suboxone to detox, I wanted to stay away from it but I didn’t have the strength to just cold turkey it. I need help, my psychiatrist straight up told me that she’s never helped someone through this so she’s just as lost as me. She wants me to stay in subs long term, I’m terrified of becoming dependent on them. Is any one in this group willing to just talk to me, I’m alone. It’s just me and my daughter right now. I’m taking care of her and she’s doing great. She’s what’s keeping me going right now but I desperately need someone to talk to that understands this. I’m having severe panic attacks, I’m a male and 27 years old. Any help at all is appreciated. I guess I’m asking for a sponsor, I don’t know how to do this or where to start but as of now I can’t go to any meetings. I have no one to watch my daughter and I’m not bringing her in there with me. Also, I know my post isn’t about feel free and I apologize for that. I’ve seen a lot of 70 post in here and figured it was appropriate.