Am I being abused?
Is this considered abuse? Should I do something or AIO?
For context, I (17F) have been struggling a lot at the moment in my last year of highschool with all the stress, and I also have ADHD, so I haven’t been in the best moods at home.
I live with both my mum and dad, and I find it hard to get ready quickly in the mornings before school, so it’s been stressful getting to my bus on time recently and most of the time I am able to get there. Otherwise, I just catch the next bus, yet my parents get really mad at me for it because they find it stressful trying to help me get ready, which I understand. But I feel like I try so hard sometimes and they never try to see from my point of view.
My whole life I have experienced being smacked as a kid and all of that discipline stuff, but nothing has ever been major enough where I’ve been bruised or severely hurt. Recently my parents and I have been fighting a lot, and they started taking my phone from me at night and in the morning, and I struggle so much at night falling asleep without my phone for like rain noise or being able to text my boyfriend before I go to bed, or if I’m really sad (I do SH and he is very supportive and is there for me - my parents know I do sh too). And since taking my phone we have been arguing a lot because of this, and in the morning I don’t know the time because I don’t have my phone, and then I end up being late for my bus.
Today I took a while to get ready because obviously I couldn’t see the time, and I’m already time blind especially with ADHD. And they were just screaming at me the whole morning. It first started when I went downstairs to get breakfast, I wanted to get ice to put in my coffee cup and my mum blocked the fridge - so I was like “can you move I need the ice” and she slapped me across the face so I was like “ok ur so rude”, so I just left my mug there and went upstairs and she said to me “yeah good starve” (because I didn’t get to make breakfast). Then while I was getting ready and brushing my teeth I was running a bit late by this time but I was still trying to get ready, so I was brushing my teeth and my dad comes in yelling so loudly and he slaps me across my back. I started crying and he says “I don’t give a fuck what you feel right now”. Then they left me for a bit cause I was in my room doing my hair and I shut the door. Both my parents started coming in screaming as I was trying to put my hair into a ponytail and my mum comes over to me and pulls my hair from my scalp, like she grabbed all of my hair and proceeds to then push me off the stool and I fell onto my back on the floor. I was bawling my eyes out and she started kicking at my legs (not that hard but). And then they were just both screaming at me while I was laying on the floor crying and they were yelling at me to get dressed.
It only really ended because I had to go get my bus, but my dad dropped me to my bus stop and was yelling at me the whole time in the car.
I’ve told my boyfriend about this and he thinks I should tell someone, but I don’t know what to do? My older sister doesn’t know that this is really happening either because she never gets in trouble like I do, and whenever she sees me getting yelled at she only sees me being angry and views that as me being a brat, but she doesn’t realise how tired and exhausted I am from years of fighting with my parents.
Is this abuse? What should I do?