I am lost and need help
In April 2022, when I was 19 years old, I was prescribed 7.5 mg of mianserin twice a day for 3 weeks, followed by 7.5 mg once a day for 1 week. During that time, besides other side effects such as a fleeting attention span, blurred vision, and hypersomnia, I noticed that I could no longer become sexually aroused. I simply could not get turned on or horny. I told the doctor about it, but he convinced me to stick to the plan and complete the full 4 weeks of treatment.
Now, more than 4 years have passed. I am 23, and my ability to become sexually aroused has never returned. There was no window of improvement—not even a short one. I have not taken any drugs since mianserin.
For the past 4 years, I have been considerably athletic and active. I used to run around 60 km per week year-round, maintained a clean diet, and had healthy sleep habits. I have never been a smoker or a drinker. Yes, I have had my downs—I am talking about my mental health—but I have also had my ups.
I visited a GP recently and told him my story. He ordered a comprehensive hormonal panel and bloodwork. All the results came back perfectly normal. The doctor recommended that I see a psychotherapist, as if the issue were purely psychological.
Honestly, I am starting to give up hope. I thought about seeing a good psychiatrist, but I feel like it would probably be much the same as seeing the GP. The way I see it, the only way out for me is to forget what it was like to experience sexual arousal. Otherwise, I feel like the emotional pain will haunt me for the rest of my life.
I honestly have no expectations or hopes in posting this, but I really wanted to talk to somebody about it.