u/Creative-Fun808

hi 16f im SOOO DISTRAUGHT ok back story
me and this boy we had tension for like almost 2 years bro non stop looking at eachother like it was heavy. i developed a really unhealthy attachment (even though we never talked before..) and stalked him/ fantasized non stop like my life depended on it. i would wake up he was the only reason why i wanted too wake up and he was the only reason why i put effort into looking good. everything revolved around him even though we never had a full conversation. we stared at eachother alot, he would always come really really close near too me, his friends would always look at me, he’s asked my friend for my name before last year. and i fallowed him on insta finally this year cuz i just needed more and he went threw my highlights like them and started texting me. we stopped texting and for months we wouldn’t talk just staring at eachother. this was the best part of my day i looked forward too nothing else. he fallowed me on twt too. ok gas forward like march april this year he is texting me something he never did before and like it’s akward cuz im akward but like he was replying too my stories sm sending me reels first thing in the morning it was crazy. he would make comments saying oh i walk behind u blabblsblahnlah like yk just really observent stuff. that happened for 3 weeks and boom he suddenly stopped and left me on seen. never knew why anyway was in school and he kept coming close too me like with his friends he was like smiling and blushing like Ok and like a week later we see eachother again he’s acknowledging me sitting close too me kinda and like looking at me my friend was my scout and she was like he’s looking he’s looking whatever that day i come too find out he just got a fucking girl friend. and there holding hands and shit and like idk bro idk so i’ve been heart broken haven’t seen him he didn’t go my way anymore unadded him on everything he doesn’t check my stuff he doesn’t even bother with me i feel like i slept threw something bro i really do. today he was with his girl holding her hand and we walked pass eachother and his eyes were just on me like didn’t break idk maybe im over looking it. i can’t dude im so depressed i wanted him so bad i miss him im going crazy