I am so tired and lonely. Idk how to explain it other people, you're the only people I could think that would understand.
I can't do my hobbies anymore, everything must be perfect and everytime i picked the pencil to write or learn a new fundamental in art, my heart hurts until i let go. All my hobbies are now tied to pain. Idk what to do anymore.
It ruined my whole day
Ijustwanna get to writing again.
I wanna turn to AI again. I tried to upload my writing and art on tumblr, but nothing, there's literally no engagement. Now all this pain feels like is for nothing. I feel like i am loosing myself. I just wanna do my hobbies comfortably again. All i see is the issues, all i see are the mistakes.
Everyone says, just do it. I can't, i physically cannot, why can't u understand that ! Why can't u understand that it literally hurts