Hi. Just like anyone else, may ups and downs din ako sa life lalo na sa career. So during the times na umaayon sakin ang mundo, I can’t stop myself from sharing it online. All my accounts are private. So when I share or post something, “controlled” yung audience.
Around last week, may milestone ako sa career. After so many years of working, naranasan ko rin “sumakses.” Finally! Ako naman yung nasa other side. Dati kasi nakikita ko lang yung small wins and milestones sa life and/or career ng ibang tao online. During those times, role ko lang ay mag-congrats sakanila, mag-react sa posts/stories, and quietly pray and hope deep inside na sana ako rin soon. I waited for my turn. I clapped for others and celebrated their wins. Most especially, I tripled my hard work and continued showing up no matter what.
Fast forward to last week nga, pinost ko yung career milestone ko. Na dapat hindi ko na pala ginawa. Kasi masasaktan lang ako. Madami nag-congrats. Madami nag-message ng “you deserve it” “happy for you” etc. Pero may mga tao pala na parang hindi kaya maging happy for you? Or can’t even put an effort to celebrate your milestone. May friends (or maybe not?) ako na ang tagal ko na hindi nakakausap, never nagllike, hindi nagrreach out, no birthday greetings, etc. Tapos nag-message sila bigla sa messenger na “pa-refer naman ako sa company mo besh” “ipasok mo naman ako diyan” “anong company yan? pabulong” etc. May isa pa na nagmessage bigla para mangutang. Na para bang contractor ako.
Hindi ko dinedemand or ineexpect na mag congrats lahat ng friends ko or magreact sa post/story. Pero ano ba naman yung bago ka sana magchat ng “pa refer” and the like eh mag effort ka manlang na “icelebrate” yung milestone ko or kamustahin ako. Ang sakit lang sa feeling. I didn’t confront those people na nagmessage. Magrreply sana ako na “wow wala manlang kamusta” kaso it wasn’t worth it. I soft blocked them. Idk if mababaw pero nasaktan talaga ako. Wala pa naman ako sa point na icutoff na yan etc kasi sayang yung years na pinagsamahan.