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I was engaged 6 months ago. Maayos naman yung relationship namin. Boring and quiet, sabi nila. But not for me as a person na very into slow life.

Last saturday night, while having dinner with my fiance, may bigla tumawag. Unknown name. Bigla nya pinatay. At sinabi na “sino kaya to” but i saw the name. Babae. I asked bakit di mo sinagot? Sabi nya di importante. Then last night, may nagmessage sakin. Same name nung tumatawag sa kanya. And nagmessage sakin na cheater yung fiance ko. I didnt reply. Natulog muna ako.

This morning, i sent screenshots ng girl to my ex. I told him, ayoko na magpakasal. Lahat ng plans, and mga nadownpayment, ok lang. Ibenta or pamigay na lang namin. Konti pa lang naman yun. Since i really wanted a simple and minalist wedding lang. Tumatawag at sinasabi na mag eexplain sya. Di ko na sinagot. No explanation needed.

Kaya pala, kaya pala tahimik siya lately. Kaya pala kahit magkasama kami, parang absent minded sya. Kaya pala marami siya mga extra curricular. Hindi na masyado namessage. Hindi masyado excited.

This is how it feels like breaking up nearing your 40s. Wala lang. Ganon lang. Goodbye ganon. Stop the wedding. Hahahahahahahaha

Ps: yung alaga nya dog nasa akin. Para sana di malungkot yung aso nya kasi mag isa lang. Kinuha ko mna kasama ng dalawa ko dog kasi lagi lang niya naiiwan. Di na niya pwede kunin. Manigas sya.

Hi, just want to vent out.

Just ended a 9.8333 years relationship compeletely. We had cooled off earlier this year, officially broken up last week, and all feelings I had went poof just today.

These are all in my view.

I went abroad last year to raise our financial capacity. The plan was for her to apply to comapnies here so she can follow. As a last resort, we were to be wed so she can follow through a spousal visa. She was agreeing to this all, had a tearful goodbye at the airport, she vowed to follow me at the soonest.

I was planning to marry her already before I got a job offer here. I was even caught looking at moissanite rings in Instagram cause i cant afford a diamond one at the time. She was genuinely okay with it, even remarking that I should just get a cheapest one, wed at the city hall, and go guns blazing at our honeymoon. She didnt pry further cause she was looking forward to my proposal plan and be surprised with what ring I have chosen.

We never had sex - both oral (she was adamantly against it as she considered the crotch organs as dirty for oral activities) and including penetration. She was adamant that sex would be one of our ultimate gifts to each other. I didnt push further as I respected that, though we had over-the-top masturbational things haha. She always told me that our first times was for each other, and she always jokingly told me not to break this when I was deployed to far jobsites for some weeks at a previous job.

We didnt get married during this time as she was the sole breadwinner of her family, vowing to at least fund the studies until college graduation of two of her siblings. Covid happened. Medical stuff happened. Financial troubles. We moved 3-4 times to gradually bigger apartments as we got promoted in our corpo jobs. Her breadwinner duties ended in 2024 so I was looking forward to moving a wedding.

We never had issues regarding cheating or any major fighting moments. We communicated what we want, we set our boundaries at each other, told each other if we are not comfortable or happy, had mostly joyful moments watching reels, collecting useless stuff, watching films, going to dates in loose baggy clothes, laughing at our failed startups lol.

Fast forward first quarter last year, I got an offer to work abroad, good money, though big expenses as well for some fees and buying luggages and stuff.

Our LDR was a probably typical, we greet eachother morning, lunch, dinner, talk/video call at nights until fall asleep. Celebrated her birthday, valentjnes, and 9th anniversary with a video call, and surprise sending her flowers at our apartment.

Fast forward again after nine months being LDR, she wanted us to cool off. The reason was that she knew I was going to marry her as soon as I had a vacation approved - but she wanted to explore other things. In short she, wasnt ready yet.

I begged for her to reconsider. We did continue still being labelled as a couple but there was a noticeable drop of effort and attention from her. I may also have slowed down my contacts as well as I got gut punched by that proposal to cool off. - but I noticed that she wasnt always looking at my messages, at our family GCs, she was taking ages to reply. Updates went rare. Food pics had become one sided from me. Going to MoA and malls became increasingly common.

Last week, after four months of telling me we should cool off, she dropped the line that we should really split up, that she really wanted to explore other things. I accepted it to let her go but we agreed to have our doors open. I reitarated that doing the deed with someone else would be a dealbreaker for me if we ever come back together. She acknowledged it as we have pledged before to each other. I prod into the "exploration" of hers and she said its basically physical intimacy, the want for it.

Gullible me thought she just wanted the physicsl dates, hugs, and kisses. Oh hell no.

She just admitted earlier this day (after a week of breaking up with me) that she already met with multiple men (through facebook groups and telegram) and already had a bodycount. SINCE SHE TOLD ME SHE WANTED US TO COOL-OFF FOUR MONTHS AGO. Everything she didnt want to do with me in the past almost 10 years, she did already multiple times, multiple types, positions, and God knows what. She was telling me that she already got "some" inside, had pregnancy scare (negative) and STD test (negative, though im not sure if it was within proper testing period).

According to her, this was happenimg even the days around my birthday (she made the effort to greet me with a video), when she promised some stuff to my mom regarding our future family plans, that my mom should look forward to a beach wedding, and some shit. The pictures that she sent me before on supposedly solo dates in restaurants and spas, in which, she admitted, actually had her FUBU beside her, hidden from the camera view. Sometimes it was her who reached out and set a sex date, sometimes it was the guy.

She was crying all the way while telling me this through the phone. She was feeling dirty and guilty. She was telling me that she views this kind of intimacy as a play or unserious, as a physical need like food and drink. She was feeling lonely and depressed, and yearned for the physical connection we had.

But that was not the crucial point for me, I said. Now its not about the bodycount. You lied to me when I asked you when we broke up last week if there was someone else already and you said no, I said. (Now in a hindsight, her statement was technically true because it was multiple elses not just someone).

I would have somewhat understood her if she went to just dates - the normal ones like food and movies. Holding hands, warmth of a hug, kiss at the forehad. But noooooo, she went straight through all the bases in the field, straight to homerun. Multiple times.

She didnt have a next one lined up yet, but she tearfully and eye-red-swellingly told me that she was honestly looking foward for the next hookup.

And there I was, just returning from from my weekly Sunday quick prayers at a nearest church. Sitting in my car in a parking lot. Going wtf. Wondering where I went wrong - was fully loyal, provider, corpo ladder climber, took care of health, no drinking or going out to parties without her. Always invited her to my previous companies' dinners and events (though she never invited me to hers)

Shit. Im lost at 30s here in a place a thousand miles away, surrounded by people who mostly I dont know. Every schedules and plans we built. Poof. Gone.

Tldr: 30sM just ended a almost 10 year relationship due to 30sF cheating / doing FUBU setup without telling me and acting nothing's happened.

Ps: i havent blocked her yet on socials, just muted and restricted, still has some businesses to wrap up. Though there are 130 unread messaged in my Messenger which I assume is her asking for me to come home so we can talk about it. Girl, United airlines ticket prices is not cheap.

Pss: my last message to her was an article about STD incubation periods and proper timeline for accurate testing.

Psss: also sent her a warning article for fake Plan B meds online.

Edit ps4: Out of morbid curiosity, i asked how they set up the dates and when it happened. Mostly the deed is done during the weekends when there's no work the following day cause they sleep in then return home at around 12-2am. I've back read our chat logs, lo an behold, she was updating me everytime that she will just go jogging or go to the mall, then will not be replying or answering calls from 6-7pm until arriving back home at midnight, sending me a "jwu" or "naalimupungatan", accompanied by "solo" pictures of food and mall activities and shops.

Edit ps5: all are working people in a corpo setting, no one is married, probably men looking for casual hookups with no strings attached but bodies only, no socials were given just Telegram, time, and date. Fuck you guys.

Edit ps6: she wants me back. She was planning to bring her secrets to the grave, and was hoping to be done with the FUBU setups when she got her fill (hehe pun may be intended) and we reconcile.

Edit ps7: she's telling me that it was partly my fault cause I wasn't sweet, that I was always busy working on my corpo job and sidegigs (girl you work 9-8 everyday unpaid OT lol), she has her needs that I wasnt able to meet, I was too restricting (girl I let you hit the bar and go on office group dates), yada yada yada.

So I'm straight, maybe a little curious LOL lately, I've been having this random curiosity about what it's like to suck dick HAHAHA

I think it started whenever I'd see my girlfriend going down on me and genuinely enjoying it. Like, she seems to be having such a good time na napapaisip ako, wait, what's it like kaya to be the one doing it? I mean, she's OBSSESSED with it as I am to her meow

I've actually talked to my girlfriend about this, and she was pretty chill about it. She didn't find it weird or anything, although she did say na if we ever decided to have a thirdie, she'd prefer another girl kasi she's apparently repulsed by dicks in general LOL and I told her din na yeah I'd want to succ a pretty one din if ever I do talaga lol swerte daw niya kasi mine looks really nice daw HAHAHA her words, not mine!

But yeah, that's pretty much where I'm at. I don't really find myself attracted to guys, but the idea of trying it out is interesting to me. Honestly, I don't even know if I'd enjoy it, but I guess that's kinda why I'm curious in the first place. I mean, we all got more nerve endings back there and that's just like a HUGE level up in pleasure imho

Okay so this was way back pero it was still a core memory in my mind. Theres just something about saving a damsel in distress, yknow?

I was in a tour group of varying nationalities w/ people from Malaysia, Korea, Philippines etc., and in one of the spots we went to was a shore where you could feed fish. Now, I was with my titas at the nearby lawson, responsible for guiding them around and I overheard them saying something about a lost cellphone and how they handed it over to the cashier. Of course, that was none of my concern yet, and I just led my titas back to the shore.

Now, when it was time to head back to the bus, I was tasked with buying water at lawson and that’s where I saw this troubled girl who was looking for something by the restroom. I really mustered up my courage and talked to her:

“Hey, are you looking for your phone?”

And she looked up at me with the cutest troubled face, “Yes, uhm its a xxxx colored phone (I think its purple idk)”

“I think I know where it is, come with me”

So I just led her to the cashier and I asked the cashier that someone lost their phone and if the phone handed over was hers. It was, and I was witness to the greatest relief I saw in my life. Can you imagine losing your phone in another country where you don’t speak their language?

We then walked back together and that’s when I learnt she was Malaysian and went to Tokyo from Osaka after splitting with her friends because she wanted to stay longer; shared in excitement about her trip to Japan. Guys, she was the first girl I introduced to my titas. The tour guide saw us returning together and started shipping us and keneleg aq cuz she’s actually my type. The trip went on and since I was with my titas, I couldn’t pursue further.

If only I had more courage, I’d have at least asked for her name.

Nakakatawa talaga yung nanay ko na ang pwede lang niyang irebat sa discussion namin is : "Nanay mo pa din ako" or "Utang mo sakin ang buhay mo".

For context my mom is a stay at home wife who barely had any contribution in my upbringing. Nag-co-co-exist lang kami but I would say na I got by because of the help from my kind tito and titas.

Maraming kabulastugan na nagawa ang nanay ko over the past 26 years of my life, here are a few examples:

1. Nagalit dahil hindi ko pinrioritize na bigyan siya ng pambayad ng utang pagkakuha ko ng scholarship money ko right before my last semester in college. I explained na sakto lang yung scholarship money ko for my tuition and graduation fees pero nagalit pa din. Di na lang siya natuwa na naka-graduate ako kahit wala siyang inambag.

2. Pinalayas ako sa bahay nila dahil pinagtanggol ko yung tita kong nagpalaki sakin from her sister-in-law na naninira sa kanya sa harap ko. Hindi daw nya gusto akong palayasin but since nag-eenjoy sila na binubuhay sila ng sister-in-law nya wala daw siyang magagawa.

3. I came out to her as gay pero pinigilan nya kong mag-come out sa stepfather ko. Because guess what? Mas natatakot siya sa sasabihin niya kesa sa nararamdaman ko.

Ngayon nagtataka siya bakit daw ang layo ng loob ko sa kanya? There was a time na nangako ako na iaahon ko siya sa kahirapan. Kaso nadevelop front lobe ko and I realized that she was the problem. Nire-ragebait ko na lang siya sa chat na kesyo pano niya nasabi sakin na utang na loob kong magbigay ng pera sa kanya porket dumaan ako sa ekup niya? Sinabihan pa nya ako na kahit ibigay ko buong sahod ko sa kanya buong buhay ko di yun sapat sa mga non-existent na sakripisyo nya. Pati tita ko na nananahimik who I dearly love dinadamay pa sa usapan na kesyo bakit daw ako mas close sa kanya e siya ang nanay ko?

I already grieved my mom a long time ago. I realized na kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko na mababago ang mindset niya. It's eary how I am just calm and collected na nakikipagsagutan sa kanya sa chat over some stupid shit that she is saying. Hindi na ako apektado sa mga pagpapa-awa niya. Sinabihan ko pa siya na tigilan niya ang pagpapadaan ng messages niya about sa pera sa ibang mga kamag-anak namin dahil kahit si Jesus pa kumausap sakin same lang din isasagot ko compared sa kung siya mismo magsabi sakin.

I am now 26. I have decided to find my chosen family and keep an open arm to people who can become important in my life. Lately I make concious effort to socialize with people kahit sa mga group chats lang with random people. Mahigpit na yakap na lang talaga para satin na hindi na-blessed ng mga matinong magulang.

I'm glad you didn’t choose me back then. I’m glad you either didn’t have the courage to choose me or simply weren’t in love with me enough to see a future with me. Because if you had chosen me, I might have never discovered the life I have today.

Context:

I met this man when I was working as an escort. Looking back, maybe I was naive to let myself become emotionally attached, knowing the nature of my work. But the truth is, I’ve always been a loving and caring woman. Even when I’m in a situation where people are supposed to be strangers, I still treat them with warmth and genuine care.

He became one of my regular clients, and over time, we grew comfortable with each other. What started as a client relationship eventually turned into dating. I was still working as an escort at the time, and he knew about it. He never stopped me because he understood that it was how I supported my family (of course, I no longer charged him).

We were together for almost four months before one day, he decided to end things.

It hurt more than I can explain. But deep down, I understood why he might have made that decision. My work was one thing, but I also came with responsibilities and obligations that he would have had to accept if he had chosen to build a future with me.

The hardest part was that I was in love with him. I was even willing to give up an opportunity to move overseas because, at that point in my life, all I wanted was for him to tell me that he wanted to be with me, too. I wasn’t asking him to have all the answers. I just wanted him to choose me.

But he didn’t.

And as painful as it was, I had no choice but to accept it and move forward. That same month, I left the Philippines and started a new chapter of my life.

Now, almost 4 years later, I can honestly say that I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I’ve learned to love myself in ways I never did before. I’ve built a decent career, earned my own money, and created a life that gives me peace. I now live in New Zealand, a place that has brought me a sense of calm, stability, and well-being that I never knew I needed. I can genuinely see myself settling here for good.

I never imagined that I would build a life outside the Philippines. And sometimes, I wonder what my life would look like today if I had stayed. I wonder what would have happened if he had chosen me and I had chosen him over the opportunity that eventually brought me here.

But one thing I know for sure is that I am grateful things happened the way they did.

Back then, I thought losing him was one of the most painful things life could do to me. I thought I was losing the future I wanted. What I didn’t realise was that life was redirecting me toward a future I couldn’t have imagined for myself.

Sometimes, we become so attached to the things we want that we fail to see what might be waiting for us beyond them. When things don’t work out, we feel rejected, defeated, and wonder why we weren’t enough to be chosen.

But not every rejection is a loss. Not every ending is a failure. And not everything we desperately want is meant to be part of our future.

Sometimes, the things that break our hearts are the very things that set us free.

And sometimes, years later, we look back at the very moment we thought our world was falling apart and realise that it was actually the beginning of a much better life.

Today, I’m no longer the woman who was waiting to be chosen by someone else. I’m a woman who has built a life she loves, found peace within herself, and discovered that she was capable of so much more than she ever imagined.

So yes, I’m glad you didn’t choose me back then.

Not because you weren’t worth loving, and not because what we had meant nothing to me, but because life had something else waiting for me.

And if I had to go through that heartbreak all over again to become the woman I am today, I would still trust that things happened the way they were meant to.

Because sometimes, what feels like rejection in the moment turns out to be redirection.

And sometimes, the life you end up being grateful for is the one you never would have chosen for yourself.

Long post ahead-

I just want to share my current situation with you guys. Oo, tama kayo ng nabasa sa caption, I am living with my Girlfriend's sisters.

Konting back story muna for context, Live-In kami ni GF for more than 4years na (we are renting), and she told me na kung pwede raw mag stay sa amin ang sister n'ya(around mid 2024 ito), habang naghahanap ng trabaho/matitirahan, which I agreed. They are from province pala, kaya I didn't hesitate.

Months gone by, nakahanap ng trabaho ang sister n'ya and naging regular na rin sa work n'ya. Isa or dalawang taon ang lumipas, my GF asked me again, if her another sister can stay in our place for the same reason. Which I agreed ulit. I don't see any problem at all dahil pamilya n'ya yun, and tuwing nauwi naman kami sa province e nakakahalobilo ko sila.

Fast forward tayo this 2026, more than 2 years na kaming magkakasama. However, this year nagkaroon ng opportunity si GF out of the country. And it's been 9months already na nasa abroad s'ya and her sisters are living with me.

Now, this is the reason why I created this post. Una sa lahat, I don't see any problem living together with them (2 of my Girlfriends sister, halos magkaka age bracket lang din kami. One is mas matanda lang ako ng buwan, and yung isa naman is 2 years ang gap ko). By the way, I'm still in mid 30s.

Sa office na pinapasukan ko, they found out na si GF is nasa abroad and nalaman nila na I am living with her sisters. They made it like a big deal. Yung mga kapwa kong lalaki, eh tuwang-tuwa habang nang-aasar na ang swerte ko raw, while yung mga babae ko namang ka trabaho eh dapat raw hindi ganun, kasi ang pangit naman daw kung malaman ng ibang tao kasi iba raw ang iisipin.

So, ngayon tuwing may nagtatanong sa akin, sinasabi ko na mga kapatid ko sila para lang maka iwas sa chismis or any judging eyes. Dahil nung nagtanong sa akin yung mga kapit bahay namin kung nasaan na si GF, and I answered abroad, parang nag iba yung ihip ng hangin. Yung mga sumunod na questions eh parang may ipinalalabas na something. You know what I mean.

Yung mga kapatid ni GF and my GF are not aware na kinausap ako ng kapitbahay namin, and I don't want them to know it dahil ayaw ko ng palakihin ang mga bagay bagay na dapat naman na wala silang pakielam.

Ang dami lang rin sa lugar namin or Bansa natin na parang na wi-wierduhan sa ganitong set-up or sadyang wala lang akong pakielam dahil alam ko naman na there's nothing wrong with it?

TLDR: I am living together with my Girlfriend's sisters and wala si GF sa country for more than 9months na, my kapitbahays/officemates makes it like a big deal.

We reconnected this year. Pero wala na 'ko sa Pinas. Nung una kaming nagkakilala, flirty na kami sa isa't-isa. Pero due to homesickness, her virtual companionship mattered a lot this time and I eventually asked her to be my partner.

I have many plans for my life. I have a solid career & I'm serious most of the time. I can take it easy from time to time naman pero migration work, work, adjustment abroad- hindi pwedeng hindi magseryoso.

Eh kaso this girl, 26 na parang highschool pa rin sa pagiging edgy. Her playful jokes were about decapitating me, cutting off my dick if she finds out cheating, feeding my flesh to pigs so no trace, etc.

Having a hard time leaving her kasi pinakilala n'ya na ko agad sa lahat. Naging close ko pa nga lola n'ya. Nakwento ko kase na yung 2 exes ko hindi naman naging proud na boyfriend nila ko. Malamya kasi 'ko eh. Kaya ginawa n'ya, pinakilala n'ya ko sa friends & family.

Hindi talag anormal yung jokes n'ya kaya I stopped talking to her after saying she legit scares me. She apologized many times. She said she's gonna make adjustments. She's been trying. Nagsisimba pa nga. Idk, seems sincere but I can't force myself to talk to her anymore.

Just a bit sad. Another failed relationship. Ultimately I just want a companion. No need for romance lol. Travel, eat good food, sex. That's it. No need to complicate life.

When I visit Asia next year, I was planning to bring her as +1 on a trip with friends. I was also planning to make her stay in my house before I bring her along with me wherever I end up in 3 years (still choosing which country to settle long term). But she randomly said umuwi na 'ko para makapagbugbugan kami.

Vulgar. I never introduced her to anyone. Goodness gracious. She said she's a geng-geng. I'm never entertaining anyone who fucking knows this term.

I'm a very observant person, and I've noticed how people who are conventionally attractive often receive more attention, warmth, and, at the very least, basic human decency compared to those who don't fit conventional standards of attractiveness and may already be struggling socially.

I'm not saying this because I'm fishing for compliments or looking for reassurance. I'm simply pointing out a pattern I've repeatedly noticed in the way people interact with one another. You can see the difference in how someone who is considered pretty is treated—with more patience, respect, admiration, and sometimes even kindness that they haven't necessarily done anything to earn.

Meanwhile, as someone who doesn't fit that conventional standard, I've experienced plenty of rude remarks, dismissive behavior, and situations where it feels like I'm much easier for people to dislike or treat poorly. It's difficult not to notice the contrast when you've experienced both sides of that social dynamic.

What makes it more frustrating is that attractiveness can sometimes seem to influence how people perceive someone's personality before they've even had the chance to know them. A person who is attractive may be perceived as approachable, likable, or worthy of attention, while someone who isn't may have to prove themselves just to receive the same level of basic respect.

As a person who is a new hire, I can see how pretty and conventionally attractive employees tend to receive warmer treatment, more patience, and more positive attention, even when they have barely had the chance to establish themselves. Meanwhile, those who don't fit that standard can easily be overlooked, judged more harshly, or treated as though they have to work twice as hard just to receive the same basic respect. It becomes especially noticeable when you're observing the workplace dynamics as a newcomer, because you haven't yet become accustomed to how differently people can respond to someone based simply on their appearance.

Anong meron sa October?

Ex of 11 years who cheated multiple times, and is now married. Suddenly sending a long ass message on ig about clarity, what if's, regrets and an apology that I do not need now after 6 yrs, like duh kasal ka at may anak.

Sa haba ng message na puro pag blame sa self nya at pag papaawa. Napareply ako ng mamamatay ka na ba?

Kasi I thought may taning na sya.

Kapal noh like akala mo di ako iniwan na basta.

Edit 1 K. Yan reply asawa Lasing daw sya nun. Reply ng Nanay.

Salamat, reddit, for my boyfriend.

Para akong nanalo sa lotto. Mabait, maalaga, malambing, pasensyoso, walang bisyo, hindi mabarkada, family-oriented, supportive, provider, higit sa lahat, gwapo. 😭😂

We’re planning to get married in a year or two. When we met pareho kaming walang plano to date pero wala, nag-click e. Hindi na kami naghiwalay since. I have never felt this secure in a relationship. Ganito pala yung pakiramdam na sigurado sayo.

I was chatting with this guy on here. Says he was cheated on by his wife. They have 2 kids, a boy and a girl. Ages 5 and 6.

So I was like, how can a mom leave her kids. Apparently, the wife went with a foreign man. So I was like, ask her family, friends, colleagues. I even told him to seek help from airport people or this famous senator.

I was really agitated because I couldn't fathom leaving my kids for another man.

This guy says he came to a point where he wanted to end things. Of course I tried to discourage him the best way I can.

Later on he said that's why he just resorts to masturb*ting. And he went on saying specially if the baby girl is around.

I was like WTF!!

I told him can't you do it when the kid is not around. Well he said it's ok I told her only daddy can do it to her.

I told him to stop because it's a form of abuse. Plus the kid will think it's normal. He won't listen to me. He would even say, the kid has stopped playing. She is now seriously watching him. He said, he gets a certain satisfaction when the little girl watches.

I couldn't take it anymore. I stopped messaging him. I wanna throw up. I was thinking of how I can make him stop. But I know reddit is anonymous. No way to find out who he is and where he is.

What broke my heart is when he said. He wouldn't do this to the kid. If she was his own child. Apparently, wife cheated on him and bore the baby girl.

Tonight he messaged me. Said he did something bad. My exact reply was "What????"

After 30mins he replied "nothing. Just forget it"

I asked " did you violate the kid??"

No more reply.

I just feel so bad. I just pray he didn't do anything to her.

Context: I’m 34(F) married with a kid living in Europe, basically I only do side gigs and my husband provides for us. We live kasama ng parents nya though we have pur separate house din within the propperty. So basically i’ve decided to continue my PhD in Food science and nutrition which is fully supported ng husband ko and his parents were excited and even told me na dapat 4 years ago after my Masters ginawa ko na though I had my son while doing my Masters so di kaya but everyone is happy except one person, my mom.

When I told her unang tanong nya anong trabaho at magkano kikitain mo dyan, magaaral ka ng 3 years tapos ano and seriously I just got pissed off. I haven’t talked to her for a month almost kasi I don’t want her to rain on my parade.

I’ve started looking for advisers na and I have professors that are interested, I’ll be the first Filipina doing it here and I just don’t understand bakit ganun, I never get her full support on anything I wanna do. It’s just sad na eventually I would rather stay away to keep my peace.

I just want to let this all out… atleast I have my husband, my son and his family to support me in my dreams 🩷

I still can’t get her words out of my head when she told me na gusto ko lang maglinis ng banyo kaya ako nag HRM…

Celebrity issue, isang buwang paguusapan. Basketball related, pagtatalunan hanggang magsuntukan. Chismis? Pucha kala mo mga detective conans at sherlock holmes kung idissect yung pinagchichismisan. Tangina mas nakilala pa yang basketbolista na yan kesa dun sa mga batang bayani na nagalay ng buhay dun sa school shootings e. Sama mo na rin yung walang katapusang love life at landi problems pero puta wala pang ipon o trabaho. Tapos magtataka kayo bakit ganto estado ng bansa at mga buhay niyo? Magtataka kayo bakit walang pake ang mga namumuno sainyo? E wala namang kakwenta kwenta yang mga pinoproblema niyo sa buhay. Wala namang ambag sa lipunan yang mga pinagkakaabalahan niyo. Bago kayo magsiiyak at manisi ng kung sino-sino kung bakit miserable tong lipunan na kinabibilangan niyo, magsitingin kayo sa salamin. Yung mga mamamayan sa ibang bansa abala sa pag resolba sa mga problema ng lipunan nila. E kayo? Ultimo dito sa Reddit puro walang kakwenta kwenta mga sub na nagmumula sa bansang to. Kanal humor sub, chismis sub, mga r4r sub. Tangina kahit yung mga normal na sub eventually nagiging malaswa e. Ewan ko sainyo.

Yep, everything is set. Bibitaw nalang dapat ako, pumikit ako nakita ko mukha ng anak ko na nakangiti. Hindi ko pala kaya.

Pagsubok lang ito, malalagpasan ko rin. Gusto ko pang makitang lumaki ang anak ko. Sana umayon na ang panahon sa akin.

Offmychest naman to so lalabas ko na HAHAHAHA. Mag 2yrs na kami ng partner ko, and actually 1yr palang talaga to 1.5yrs nakikipag break na talaga ko usually before pag lagi akong neglected, or di pasok sa standard ko. I REFUSE talaga kasi na mabuhay sa mundong to na hindi minamahal ng tama, STUBBORN ako talaga. As a woman kasi na lumaki sa environment na puro neglected ang babae, at bare minimum ang mga fathers, gusto ko talaga ibreak yung cycle, sinasabi ko talaga sa sarili ko READY NA AKO MAG ISA, MAGING SINGLE.

Pero after plenty of serious relationship hanggang mid 20 ko, at after my last ex, nakipag talking stages lang ako (di ako nag accept ng ligaw until mameet ko partner ko now) ayun, I can say super grateful ako, natupad naman yung pagiging stubborn ko HAHAHAHA yung pagiging high standard ko, pinakinggan na.

Not gonna go into detail, pero related sa title, no one ever loved me, complimented me CONSISTENTLY LIKE, EVERY FCKING DAY sinasabi nya through call at especially pa in person na MAGANDA AKO, AKO PINAKA MAGANDA.

And wala lang extra sweeter lang today, kasi nanonood kami ng movie sa bed tapos I was all messy kasi bagong gising walang suklay. Pero while I was laughing sa pinapanood ko, nakatulala lang sya saakin, and I asked him why sabi nya "sobrang ganda mo love, wala lang I just wanna admire you, nood kalang" then he's caressing my face gently. MAAAAAN he doesn't know how much kinikilig ako pero I try to be not OA sa kilig so nag focus nalang ako sa pag nood ko ng movie HAHAHAHAHAA.

Wala lang, I'm just happy in almost 2yrs namin, hindi parin sya nagsasawa sabihan ako ng maganda kahit I don't see it always. He's just the best and I'm grateful to have him.

PS: I do compliment him also pero di talaga sya sanay HAHAHAHAHA. Sweet rin naman ako at times hehe.

I started reading for pleasure young. At 6 I started reading funny comics by myself. Then yung laughter is the best medicine ng Reader's Digest. Every night I was told a bedtime story by my father ng walang palya.

I then moved to reading books ng about the neighborhood and family and the world pa pambata talaga.

Grade 5 I started reading Nancy Drew, Hardy boys which I borrow from the library. Buong stories na ng Reader's Digest. Grade six sweet valley high, and mga romance novels ng ate ako.

Highschool I started reading my Tatang's books. Fourth year ako noong nagsimula akong magbasa ng Harry Potter. Kailangan ko pang hintayin na matapos ni JK Rowling ang pagsulat niya ng mga novels niya

I stopped reading intensely when I became pregnant. Kailangan yun mga easy to read books lang. Kung love story eh magiging emotional ako😂

Noong nanganak ako I still read pero mas matagal ko nang matapos at nagswitch na din ako ng ebooks sa cellphone.

Noong lumalaki ang anak ko, every night walang palya,, may storytelling kami. Pero noong summer, nagbabasa na kami na kami mga libro para sa mga bata. Yun una ay limang libro ng magic tree house na hiniram namin sa library namin sa school. Tapos noong birthday niya ay bumili ako ng isang box set ng A-Z mysteries. Para sa Christmas nakabili na ako ng complete box set ng Magic tree house. 🩷