Mom bought artwork of me with my deadname on it
Title might be poorly phrased which i wanna apologize for
So my mom bought two A3 stylized artworks of me and my brother as babies (when i was already out as trans) with information like how much we weighed and what time we were born. It has my deadname on it in pretty big text. I asked her if we could take it down, get a new one or at least not have it hanging in the living room where everyone can see it and probably figure out i’m trans. Id like my friends for one not to know my deadname, i’d like new guests not to know i’m trans or know my deadname. My mother told me no and that we can’t erase the past. She sounded a little annoyed at my request as well which didn’t feel good. I understand why my mother wants to keep it up of course, and i don’t blame her, but it makes me feel sick, sad, and honestly i just want to break it into pieces everytime i look at it. I don’t know what to do about this, and i don’t know if i’m even in the right here. Maybe my mom should be allowed to keep it up in the living room for everyone to see. Again, i understand why my mom doesn’t want it taken down but i genuinely just want to cry when i see it, it feels like my mom can’t let go and is holding onto her with everything she got. I love my mom but she doesn’t understand me and how this feels for me even when i try to explain it. I don’t know, i might be in the wrong but i just want to find a solution that could be good for both of us, i don’t want to hurt my moms feelings and say that it’s bad to wanna remember your daughter you know?
I also wanna apologize if i used the wrong flair for this post or if this is against the rules. I did go through the rules before posting this but it is possible i’ve misunderstood or missed something, if that is the case i’ll take this post down (；´∀｀)
edit: I’d like to make clear that my mom does support me and is looking out for me when it comes to binders, prevention pills etc. and i love my mom a lot and it kinda feels like i’m villainizing her which i’m not trying to do. And i’d also like to thank everyone who commented advice which are helping me so thank you ╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯