I have problems focusing at work.. I’m failing but can’t get out
Hi it would be embarrassing to share this but maybe there’s someone out there with the same struggles as I have?
I’m having problems with focusing and self control.. ever since in studying in college and HS I always procrastinate, I find myself sleeping off when I face challenges like studying and sleeping is my scapegoat, and then do cram studying doing cutting class to review for my exam.. I lack discipline..
then comes work, every work I do it’s all failing I can’t seem to do good at any job like in the hospital, now as a med allied am now in medical coding.. I just feel like I’m playing etc.. can’t seem to be the kind of responsible employee I need to be..
Is it just me and my lack of discipline? Or is it a mental health thing like ADHD? Or do I just need some self control? But it’s so hard!
I easily get bored and now I don’t find the drive or motivation in the work I do and am planning to leave.. I’m also not having a good mark anymore on my teammates and leaders with the work I do and I find no drive to improve hence I want to leave and find other stuff in life.. para bang “nagkakalat ng lagim” kaya ayoko na nakakhiya narin kasi
But then here comes the car loan and housing loan my Mom wanted me to have so I somehow have an investment from my jobs due to my erratic decisions..
I just.. I don’t know.. want to find that spark in life.. then I know those material things will follow right?