Mothers Day bs
Im (F)(30) my Son (9)
sidenote this might not make the most sense since im a little irritated writing this but bare with me please..
mothers day was never special for me - being that I have a 9 year old. I RARELY gives compliments on my parenting.. I am the only one out of my siblings that has a child so I am the ONLY MOTHER in the siblings ( don't you think I would've been treated special because I gave them the angellllllll of a grandson.. LOL
ANYWAY down to the story..
This year was very different and idk why... I went over to my parents place to spend the weekend with them.. we had another event to attend to before mothers day.. so I went to them to make it more convenient for them and the events ofc.
Woke up mothers day with them & the minute I woke up it went all to shit.. my family couldn't get plans together, I didnt even get a gift from them or my OWN MOTHER.. ( only HOURSSSSSSSS later) apparently we got a gift but I KNOW it was from my uncle and he didnt want to embarrass our pops or my mom so he made it feel like it was from them.. I read the room pretty well as I always do.. then my uncle got us flowers ( my mom, aunt and I ) so thats when I knew the other gifts were from him... no way my pops ordered gifts to his brothers place ( they barely get along ) Plus my pops doesn't plan shit like that that detailed - yeah so simple but yet so far fetched for his little mind to had thought of.
They wanted me to come over to their place so bad with nothing to show.. disappointing..
Im really saddened by the way my family treats me on a special day that I thought I would be special on.. seeing alot on social media makes you jealous because not everyones family is in tact or has the right mid set to celebrate other people.. but unfortunately I have selfish parents who just think these days are just about them.. and when their own CHILDREN have kids they don't see it to celebrate ( meaning just me )
my pops literally told me one year " your not my mother, why would I say happy mothers day" That was really a wake up call. idk what year but he said it and that made me feel like no other mother figure that fucking catered to his ass was worth a "happy mothers day: MEAN WHILE I GAVE THEM THE ANGEL OF A GRANDSONN!!!
and yes in im my feelings because now we have a new baby on the way from my stepbrother and I AM SO HAPPPPPPY TO BE A TITI !!! but my mom is now obsessed with the process and situation that she'll do anything to be overly involved with another baby.. and tbh my mom talks highly about my brothers gf which is good. im glad my brother found such a great woman. I loveee her she's great.. but IM THE ONLY DAUGHTER.. and if my mom does show more love to this other girl and her baby And wanting to be involved.. I'll push me aside as always even before her pregnancy.. that'll it'll cause alot more strain on my mother and I'd relationship.. I vaguely talked about it to her before and of course my mom said I was being jealous..
Imagine being the only daughter and your mom is in love with some other daughter.. so then your mom thinks she has the right to alllll information pertaining the baby and my brothers gf.. my mom doesn't know boundaries ( from experience )
It's just sad that you know what next year mothers day I won't mean shit... and we'll just count down the day til im really not their " only daughter" and if they ever say that to me.. I knowwwww ima be pissed cause get the fuck outta here.. I AM THE ONLY PRINCESS IN THIS FUCKING FAMILY!
but if I have to distance myself for my son and I then I will do so.. cause because their drama and bullshit isn't worth my peace..
let me know what you think. confused? just ask me a question lol