**Hang in with me yall I cannot describe a story if my life hung in the balance**
Tl;DR Some background before like most every Reddit story.
I moved to a small town halfway through 5th grade and I tried making new friends and that backfired and I also did more embarrassing things to myself which caused me to get bullied throughout the rest of that year until freshman year in high school. Yikes I know rough start
Alrighty so basically I’m wondering about this one girl. I used to go to school for around 4 years with one girl in my class, and I never really noticed her before or thought about her before freshman year. Twas a dark and gloomy day, jk. No um so freshman year it was new everything, new people, place, etc and I had a math class with her at the beginning of the year where she sat near me and I could not tell you how I first struck up a conversation with her but long story short I was able to, most everyday, make her laugh at my terrible jokes so I thought cool I never really noticed her before but she seems interesting. So I decided to try and slip in some actual conversation into my jokes, it worked we talked until my teacher moved me to a different seat (teach I’m gonna get you for that). And we stopped talking for a little bit after that but throughout the year we were still friendly and talked and I had a suspicion that she might have had a slight crush on me, some signs popped up but I think I was overthinking things. Anyway I moved away to the town I came from before, and the school year has been great, new start and all that stuff, cleared my anxiety and depression up with friends and some therapy, and I have been happy until. I seen her and a group of people from the old school at a thing during school today, and let me say this before I go any further one of the dudes in that groups was a guy that came freshman year and he and some other people came to my home during a random Saturday night at 11:30 when I was sleeping and woke me up, and I go and to see what the hell woke me up and I see like 5 people with their phones out and their flashlights on recording me and I’m super disoriented here, I though I would never see these people again and I was half awake 11:30 and all and they got a video of me standing in my hallway infront of them just standing there with a confused look on my face. I’m gonna take a minute here and not die from embarrassment because at this thingamajig I see him and I thought of that night and just avoided him and everyone else from the old school then I hear him call my name and I see him pull out his phone to show me that video of me which I didn’t know existed before today, and I bet he showed everyone that video😔. I talked to a friend about this and they said, “dude just talk to the girl, you still got some feelings about her. Even after that junk that happened today, you should try and talk to her. You don’t know if she heard anything about it so at least try and stop torturing yourself on a what-if?” And I would like to know, should I or am I cooked😐