u/Creative_Long3890

things are getting complicated for me every day recently. my father used to be my bestfriend and i always thought it was he and me againts the world. sen my uncle passed away from lung cancer - my mothers big brother - . soon after my father wanted to divorce and i decided to live with him. because i never got along with my mum and again my father was my hero and my bestfriend. anyways appearantly my father was cheating on my mum and that women just came to our lives. i wont get into details i was 15 back then - now i am 30. and recently i learned that my father is again cheating his wife with a 30 years old. after that i faced all of my trauma from my 15 years old myself and decided not to see my father again. it has been 2 months i guess and i told him that he is a pervert for being with a woman in my age. finally today i learned that he is diagnosed with lung cancer 1 year ago - and yes never told me - and he refused to take cemo. i dont know what to do honestly i am into pieces there are lots of voices in my head. he told my father in law that he divorced his wife because she told that she wont take care of him when he got really sick, and he decided to marry that woman because she will take care of him?? i mean it does not justify any of these obviously and i can not decide what to do i can not cope with any of my emotions and thoughts. i am both angry and sad and everythings all at once. he wants to meet me and he does not know that i know that he got cancer. any advice for anything?