Too much all at once
I can't sleep due to a recent argument with my husband. I work as a teacher and apparently, my late meetings are just too much of ask due to our sons being so young (3 and 5 respectively). His mom and grandma watch our boys when we work, taking the oldest to school, so they cant help on these nights. I'm trying to figure out if I can make this work next year but I don't know what to do. I'm not sure how I can make it easier or i just simply have to get a new job or stop going to these meetings (once a month) and lose what I gained from it. I'm not sure if can even tell him my plans for the last day of the school as I'm sure he'll have a problem with that too. Ever since our youngest has been born, things have been more challenging and their have been more arguments. We are both very tired from our jobs and barely have energy to spare for our children. I sometimes wonder if it be easier to work from home but I need that social interaction. I have no friends outside of work and my family is the same as his minus my aunt I talk to once in a while, who lives in another state. I have nothing to me except my job and now that seems like it's becoming more difficult. My husband does a lot for the house and I could probably do my part more but he's very particular about everything. I offer suggestions and get shot down instantly. The only i seem good at is my job - even being a mother seems like I might be failing at it because I don't think of things like I'm supposed to like making something for my youngest as the oldest is served his food (kids are picky eaters). I hate the fact I have to work summer school so we can survive and will have a lot of back and forth driving. It's going to be a nightmare that I'm dreading because they stuck me with a grade level i don't teach. I just want to help take care of the children and still have a career. Is that too much ask?
If you got this far, I apologize for how long this is but I needed to vent. Now I'm going to try to sleep so I can move past this.