This is new
So recently I came out to a lot of my friends, which went great. Before, I always tried to do one night stands because I thought that was what people do. I could never actually do it though. I would be in a room with someone trying, but I couldn’t even get hard. Then I started dating, and once I got to know someone and felt a connection, I would find them sexually attractive and want to do stuff with them.
Before, I was never a very physical person. Cuddling was okay, and hand holding felt like something I would do more for the other person than for myself. Until I met my now boyfriend and holy shit, does this feel different. I thought I loved people in the past. I thought I was sexually attracted to them, but my boyfriend? I want to hold his hand, cuddle, kiss, and do the naughty stuff like never before.
When I was alone, I could still do stuff and get horny, don’t get me wrong, I just could never do it with random people. It’s all so new to me. I have never felt this comfortable or had such a strong romantic and sexual connection with someone before, and it’s wonderful. I’m new to this feeling. To be honest, I thought I knew what love and sexual attraction felt like until I met him.
Any I think I am actually happy for once.