Stay NC!!!
I know this has been said before, and I have always agreed, but then I would break no contact and here I am crying my eyes out yet again because I found out even more information. Every fucking time I text him I find out more or I find out something in a roundabout way through his sister’s Instagram. So now I know he has a new girlfriend and they’re up at his family’s house celebrating the sister‘s birthday and a belated Mother’s Day and I am just forgotten garbage. So many times I said not again, stop checking, stop asking questions, stop trying to get closure, because it’s pointless and I swear it’s true. It’s so fucking true. Unless you want your heart to be broken 1 million times over and over and be me a year after the dumping and still wasting energy and Kleenex over crying just don’t do it.
I really think mine is a covert narcissist though, because he never said that stuff like you’ll find somebody better than me and all of that stuff, he straight up said that I never loved him and he laughed about it. He’s just so cold and heartless and why I keep crying about it. I’ll never know I think at this point I’m more mad at myself. I’ve done a lot of work over the past year, but I’m finally going to therapy next week and I think I’m actually gonna try psychedelic therapy etc to fix my brain. I’m really stuck on the happily forever after shit He sold me and I believed.