Repeating a Year
Has anyone had to repeat a year over a single course? The school decided I need to repeat the entire first year over for a single course and I’m not sure if I mentally can handle it. I feel like a failure. They gave me zero support during the summer remediation process. I was told to go over the notes again. The same notes that obviously didn’t help the first time. I missed the passing grade by less than a point. I feel frustrated with myself and I’m debating if I should just withdrawal. I feel like I'm not good enough and if I was I would have just passed the first time. I feel defeated. Like I’m not cut out for this. I’m also facing a lot of outside stress especially financially to the point I might not have a car to get to school. I have had a lot of personal hardships come up. I’ve been struggling with severe testing anxiety to the point I black out during exams. I’m struggling with being the thought of taking every single class again over it. It doesn’t seem fair. I passed them and feel like I shouldn’t have to retake them all. I get retaking the failed course obviously, but not all the courses. It’s frustrating. I’m also struggling at the thought of my class moving on without me and being a year behind. It’s embarrassing and the students definitely talk and I know I’ll be talked about. I’ve seen it happen. At this point I’ll be 33 when I graduate (if I get there because I’m seriously doubting it right now) and I feel like I’ll be too old for my life to begin at that point. the school suggested a year of absence to think it over because I have to make the decision by Monday. But financially I can’t as I wouldn’t be considered legacy for financial aid. I know this is all over the place. Just felt like I needed to vent to people who might understand or could possibly give advice.