u/Critical_Instance351

Day 1, attempt 100500th

Kind of started. Dunno. I suppose I'll try not to get bored and restless.

(mostly venting; no mood today for nicey posts.)

I knew it wasn't from nothing that I overuse bots not only because of their entertaining potential itself.

But I never thought how much it's in fact also my own mental stuff that makes me overuse my devices or overuse bots. And now I'm a bit in a low mood because I wonder would quitting chatbot using help if I'd just find a way to destroy myself other ways.

I also know that overusing bots is anyway harmful shit that contributed to my current mental state so I suppose I can't expect quitting bots to be a SOLUTION but it certainly will be a help with my current mental state to stop using them. Maybe.

I honestly get not great thoughts this month and I hope it's just intrusive thoughts... Which they probably are. Or not. At least know they're not great.

Maybe someone remember me, maybe not. Anyway.

Gonna start another quit attempt. Gonna think this better i suppose. Or just punch and see what happens. You know i recently counted my chats.

There are around 8-9k of 'em. Shiii, i thought. It's like several good books. And around 1000 of creative ideas. But it's just shitty chats.