so an mtf r*ped me
I know im gonna get hate for this, and my post will probably get removed, but I have no one in my real life i can talk to about this. I feel like im becoming a terrible hateful person, cause last year a mtf person raped me (and I later found out 3 other friends) and now I have this fucking pit of hatred in my heart for people like them. I cry myself to sleep the nights I don’t let myself just be angry.
I don’t want to a hateful or “bad” person, but that person ruined my fucking life and I can’t imagine ever being able to forget this and not feel like a disgusting worthless piece of shit til the day I die, all cause they thought I was “pretty”, which fucking grosses me out more than anything. (Im a guy but im only about 5’8” and I have really long hair) I thought we were friends. I thought I could trust them. I never in a million years thought something like this could happen to me. I was high and weak and it was all something i couldve and shouldve prevented if I was smarter. I can see that now. God I feel fucking sick just writing this shit.
I just don’t know how to feel anymore. What happened changed me. Im bitter and angry and honestly a horribly hateful person all cause of one thing that happened. I don’t know if I can ever go back to being happy and accepting of others like I was before I met this person. I miss my old self. I wanna die Sometimes.