Will I ever feel ok again?
I’m 28f and two days ago I got into my first car wreck ever. I was the driver and it was just me in the car. (Thank god as I have 4 small children)!
Here’s what happened: I was driving in my cities busiest road which has 4 lanes. I went to “merge” over into the turn lane and at the same time a car was pulling out of a parking lot and he smacked my rear passenger side panel (think of a cop executing a pit maneuver) and it sent me rolling in my SUV 3x. I ROLLED 3 TIMES. Now, again. This is my first car accident ever. I’ve never even had a rear-ending accident or anything. The police report puts him at fault, and the guy admitted it was his fault, too! Here’s where I say I don’t feel “normal” .
I walked away from the accident with only having a black eye and very bad whiplash. Quite literally, a miracle that’s the only thing I walked away with because it was a badddd accident! But ever since my accident, I can’t sleep because every time I close my eyes, I replay the wreck over and over again and I wake up sweating and crying and the biggest problem yet, is that I can’t help but feel…Obsessed? Because I find myself CONSTANTLY thinking about the wreck. My kid got an award today, and the first thing that went through my head rather than “Oh wow! My son got this amazing thing today!” My mind went to, “Oh wow! I almost wasn’t here to see him get this award.” And I just can’t seem to re wire my brain back to normal.
I guess I’m writing this to ask if anyone else has went through a similar situation, and did you suffer the same way I am? When will I be able to sleep again without nightmares? Thank you all if you have gotten this far. I appreciate you.