Are we still even friends?
I’m confused about you in a way that I haven’t ever been. You’ve always been there for me, and I, you. You’ve taken so many of my phone calls. We’ve spent hours talking about life. We lived together briefly, and worked together. It just feels natural when I’m with you. It always has. But for some reason I’ve always felt just outside of your orbit. Like I’m not important enough to you for you to tell me your thoughts and feelings through out the day or week. Like I’m standing outside of a glass house, looking in. We see each other, but you never fully let me in. I want to be in. I want to actively be your friend. I want to have weekly phone calls and get to know you more. I don’t know where I want it all to go, but I do know that I want to see more of you. I’m tired of being on the outside. Please let me in. I don’t know if you’re avoidant, or just busy, but I want this. Part of me thinks you might too. I don’t know why else you’d spend 7hrs on the phone talking to me. Please give this a chance. Whether we just become deeper friends, or something more. I want you in my life.
Love,
L