Unfortunately, I still miss him.
Throwaway for obvious reasons.
It has been about 3 months since we last spoke, although he has attempted to reach me since then. I’ve denied his advances.
He’s been heavily on my mind lately and I truly do miss our friendship. We grew incredibly close throughout all of 2025, and he was my rock during one of the toughest years of my life. I miss him so so so much. It’s tempting to unblock him and reach out, but I know it’s a bad idea. He clearly still gives some fucks about me which makes this even harder.
I’m just heartbroken, despite being the one to truly end things this time. The guilt was eating both of us alive but having each other almost makes it seem worth it somedays. Our bond was something that I’ve never felt before and it was/is intoxicating.
I know I’ll eventually stop feeling this way one day. I just hope that day is soon.