I was Naive
I just experienced this yesterday. It was a pretty fucked up and terrifying situation. I (23M) just installed a specific dating app for curiousity, initially I've chosen an app said to be wholesome where people can get friends supposedly, and at first it was. I chatted with several people and no one is pervert so far. But, I stumble upon this account I'll call Sam for this narration (I'm too scared they'll find this comment here)
So, Sam and I had the typical conversation. Some kind of introduction and stuff. But not so long after, she asked me of my Telegram detail. We chatted there, asked me of my FB as well because she told me she wanted to be friend on facebook as well and will add me, I gave my school fb account (well, I've graduated 2 years ago so the account became private account with only some of my well known friends and relatives only) so yeah. We chatted and then she asked to video call. It was unexpected, I was outside. I opened the video call and saw a pretty caucasian girl fingering and masturbating. I've seen it, I covered my phone and peeked a few seconds later, the camera is now fixed and the obscene angle is gone and all I'm seeing was her face.
I went back home, she insisted of chatting with me, telling me she's horny right now and that if I could join her. She asked me if I want sex, I'm inexperienced and I don't know, this is the first time someone asked me that. I told her I don't know, it's making me nervous. So many things are happening at once. She asked me if I wanted to see some boobs and I agreed. I'm losing my judgement and I gave in, I'm in the bedroom alone, were on video call, she lifted her clothes, and I've seen it. Asked me if I wanted to see her pussy, I agreed but she told me she wanted to see my dick and have vcs. I told them I can't, I'm at my relatives place. She's very insistent, she asked me to go to bathroom and pretend I'm shitting or bathing. Fuck I was dumb to fell for that.
I went to bathroom feeling horny too. We started the video call, face to face first, slowly lowering the camera angles. She showed her private part after I showed her my dick. She started fingering and it turned me on and I follow suit, She's teasing me with camera by removing her pussy from the view if my dick is not showing in mine. And show it again when I fixed mine. I continued touching myself looking at her masturbating. And yeah, it happened for about 3-5 minutes, and I was not suspecting a thing until the video call just dropped and all I'm seeing is a chat "We've got your video, cooperate with us or we'll spread these to your friends" Then sent me a lot of videos of myself and that girl from earlier doing something so embarrassing.
In that moment, the height of the pleasure I'm feeling became the cliff of my demise. It's over for me. My vision turned dark, I can hear only loud and low frequency sound, I'm losing balance, I'm spiraling. I'm extremely terrified. I honestly don't know what to do or say, I just froze there hoping this is not real.
Fuck it, I was dumb. It was the worse things I did, I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say, I don't know where to go, I don't know. They threatened me, they called and I hear a man speak "cooperate or we'll send this to everyone, let's see if you can take it" then sent me a screenshot of my contacts, my relatives, and my alma-maters open conversation. They are threatening me, If I can't give them the amount they're asking, my videos are one click away from them. I'm so terrified and I couldn't even respond to their call anymore. I just froze there, acting like nothing is happening, but my relatives here at home notice there's something wrong, I brushed it off telling them I'm fine when I'm clearly scared for my future. They saw through my fidgeting, fixation on my phone even though it's charging, staring into the oblivion.
The sextortionist continued to threaten me, The man on call is threatening, cursing, and repeatedly send a screenshot of my contacts and their conversations opened with my videos ready to be sent. In that moment, I am terrified and I actually sent some amount through local mobile wallet app because they told me they'll delete it once I paid, but they didn't delete the video, they said it was not enough because "their boss" is not satisfied. Continues cursing me to pay more even though I told them I already borrowed money and that's the only thing I've got. They told me why I'm not doing something about it, telling me am I ok the video be shared online. Like fuck, I already did what they want. But they are afterall a criminal and I knew the moment they asked for additional, it will never end. So, I stopped the conversation, deactivated my facebook, and stopped responding. But deep inside me, I don't know if I did the right thing, what if they sent it?I hate this feeling, I'm crippling in anxiety tonight. I'm so terrified and I don't know what to do up until now.
Please help me and give me advice. This is the first time something so fucked up happened to my life. I don't know how it will affect my future. I was so naive and fool for trusting.