Does anybody like being schizophrenic?
currently hallucinations feel preferable to feeling chemically shut down.
I felt like the positives outweigh the negatives. sure i was easily over stimulated but i often had some pretty neat hallucinations. i could talk about hallucinations i’ve had all day but the bottom line is i think my brain was just trying to entertain itself by filling in the spaces.
now i just feel chemically lobotomized on medication. which is great for stability but all i get out of life nowadays is a lot of suicidal ideation and tinnitus instead of voices and intense hallucinations. sometimes they were frightening hallucinations but i got over them. i can’t get over this feeling of emptiness though. hoping over time it will get better but i do miss being schizophrenic, life was more whimsical. even when i was psychotic i would snap out of it and regain insight after some isolation
would love to read some experiences where schizophrenia was a net positive. eg a good way to kill time basically