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I remember loving a tv show on Netflix when I was around 8 (I'm 14 now) it was about 4? (I think) Teen girls who fought evil with magic "makeup powers". I remember they would transform with a makeup brush as they yelled their superhero name. I remember this one episode in particular where the girls got hypnotized at a carnival. It scared the shit out of me! I also remember an episode when they were on some sort of film set and had baked something when one of the evil guys came and attacked them. And also one episode where the pink girl holds onto a rope while falling down a building. One of the bad guys might have been a clown who fought with the blue girl at one point (though I'm really unsure about that.

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I've tried looking for the show but i have no idea what to Google so I heard about this subreddit and thought I could maybe see if I was crazy or if someone else knew what I was talking about.

I have bin using it to watch madoka Magica but I saw someone saying it has viruses and now I'm super paranoid I gave my phone one

it's 3am right now where i live and about 1 hour ago i was scrolling through pinterest when i found a not so safe looking link to watch the show. and like the idiot i am i clicked and started watching.

and wow. i don't think i can really put into words how i feel watching just the 3 first episodes so far.

i have ADHD. and it's probably the worst thing for my mental health like ever. i can make stories up and spend days, even weeks just checking out of reality. i watch a show or play a video game and for the next week or so i can make up different stories where i somehow insert myself into the story and live the life of my dreams far away from my problems. in worlds where i can feel special, and where people like me.

but there is something about madoka magica that won't let me do that. and i think it's because i am exactly like Madoka Kaname. a girl who isn't special. not bad at everything, but not good at one specific thing. just mediocre at everything. and clearly willing to become a magical girl just to feel good at something.

it's like Madoka Kaname is the me who somehow got a chance to be a hero. who's delusions where made into reality. and it's obvious that it's in reality not fun. it's not all fun to be a hero.

i know this post is like really emotional and weird and it's probably really hard to understand what i'm talking about. (that is probably not helped by english not being my first language lol) but i honestly just really wanna see if there is someone who can somewhat understand at least. and i would much rather ask strangers on the internet then someone i know.