u/Cursed_Meatball_3008

Jestem w dość dziwnym momencie w życiu bo chociaż mam już ponad trzy dychy na karku to dopiero teraz do mnie dotarło czego doświadczyłam a jednocześnie obawiam się, że jest już dla mnie za późno by zbudować sobie życie które nie będzie dla mnie rozczarowaniem. Ostatnio martwię się przeszłością, teraźniejszością i przyszłością i chyba muszę usłyszeć od kogoś z podobnym lore, że się da xD Ktoś ma jakieś inspirujące historie albo koleżeńskie rady którymi chciałby się podzielić?

Even when I was in a very bad mental state, I always had a rich imagination and high creativity. Every night when I lay down to sleep I would have vivid hypnagogic imagery, and in the mornings I'd wake up sometimes remembering quite wild dreams. I went to a psychiatrist because of insomnia, anxiety, and difficulties with learning that stemmed from trauma I had experienced. Over the years I received various, sometimes very strange diagnoses, and in an attempt to help myself I took various medication cocktails. For sleep I was given low doses of quetiapine, which I took for several years - mainly because I quickly reached a point where I could no longer sleep without it and it was very hard to discontinue. Had I been informed about side effects - grey matter shrinkage, cognitive decline - I’d never ever take them, especially having already learning difficulties… Today I have not taken it for a long time, but something seems to have changed quite significantly in my brain and I feel like something is wrong. I lost my creativity, which is why I stopped doing art. I almost never have dreams anymore. When I lie down to sleep and close my eyes I see only darkness, and this something new and unpleasant - as if I were laying in a dark room. My imagination is no longer as sharp as it was not so long ago. Do you have any advice?

I've been incredibly scatterbrained lately and I just ruined my favourite curry. I was cooking a dish that, ironically, has no tomatoes in the recipe whatsoever. I sauted the onion, added ginger, garlic, some standard spices and red curry paste, a broth made from dried lemongrass (because I don't have fresh), coconut milk, and then my hand reached into the cupboard for a litre bottle of passata and poured it into the pot, and by the time I realised what I was doing it was already too late.

I'm sure it's because of my compulsive spaghetti cooking, blah. Now I have a full pot of oriental tomato paste. The taste isn't terrible but it's also quite strange and I genuinely don't know what to do with it to avoid throwing it away. Any ideas on how I can put a positive spin on this and make something good out of it? I have lentils, rice, chicken, butter, peanuts, peanut butter, more coconut milk.

I've been incredibly scatterbrained lately and I just ruined my favourite curry. I was cooking a dish that, ironically, has no tomatoes in the recipe whatsoever. I sauted the onion, added ginger, garlic, some standard spices and red curry paste, a broth made from dried lemongrass (because I don't have fresh), coconut milk, and then my hand reached into the cupboard for a litre bottle of passata and poured it into the pot, and by the time I realised what I was doing it was already too late.

I'm sure it's because of my compulsive spaghetti cooking, blah. Now I have a full pot of ********* tomato paste. The taste isn't terrible but it's also quite strange and I genuinely don't know what to do with it to avoid throwing it away. Any ideas on how I can put a positive spin on this and make something good out of it?