Same trapped story, different person
It is my turn to post about my sadness of being trapped. I finally came out to my wife and was pretty well received but she is not convinced. I actually came out to her a few years ago but didn’t tell her the extent of my feelings. I have told her that I would start hormones whenever she was ok with it and even came out to my doctor to see my options. We have done bloodwork and she has tailored HRT for me whenever I am ready. I am ready but my wife is not. I love her and will not intentionally hurt her so if she doesn’t want me to take hormones, I won’t. I also came out to my therapist and will be meeting with her about my feelings. I know they won’t go away at this point so I feel I need to do something. I will be ok if she says no but I will have to find an outlet for my feelings. It hurts so bad everyday to wake up and not be able to just be myself. To have to push those feelings down and force myself to get dressed in the same old clothes. I have to put on my cloak for the world and be who everyone wants me to be. See, same story, but thank you for listening to mine. 😔