I am 25 female and my life ended years ago.
I literally have nothing, no one, lost the love of my life years ago, lost my baby, Ive lost any attraction to people and I don't leave the house, I have no hobbies, no joy, no friends, no job. Nothing. I have absolutely nothing but my cats and that's so fucking depressing. I miss my teen years when I had friends and love and a future to look forward to, I miss partying and feeling joy, feeling anything other than depression. My life's been like this for the past 6 years and I felt like I died 6 years ago and I've been living in a isolated hell that I literally can't get out of. I want my old life back and there's nothing for me going forward, I don't want anyone else or anything else, I'm filled with sadness, trauma and regret. It's all I feel and nothing changes that. I feel old, ugly and unlovable. I won't love again, I won't feel happiness again. There just isn't anything that can help, drugs don't help, alcohol doesn't help. I'm fucked. I genuinely feel like I died so fucking long ago but for some reason I'm still conscious. My future is fucked, there's nothing to look forward too. I'm won't kms but I don't want to live like this but there's nothing I can do. A job won't help, friends won't help. I just miss being younger and being loved and pretty. Everyday is so painful. I feel like I'm the only one feeling this way.