I think dili na nako kaya, I've grown so hateful and wala nako kasabot sa akong kaugalingon. Ganahan ko maikog but part of me says dapat ko manimalos. Gikapoy na kaayo ko. Di nako ganahan mumata.
30s, jobless, going through a gruesome break up, and behind na sa akong goals. I cry everyday and I choose to be like this instead because I'm scared to be try to be okay only to feel like I've lost everything all over again. I'm not strong enough to keep recovering.
Mag sige rako ug kahinumdom sa old messages, old dates, old goals, and daghan kaayo maka set off sa akong paghilak. Akong parents nanigulang nalang and well off sila but I should have been stronger para ako na mag atiman nila even if maka afford sila sa ilang self. Naikog na kaayo ko nila but at the same time di nako ganahan ma okay. Usahay muhagulhol nalang ko sa kasakit tanan. Dili na nako ni kaya.
I love my mama. I want to tell her everything and naa ra siya sa dinner table rn while ako nag type ani sa sala. I can hear her reels. But I know naa siyay iyang own problems. She's so cheerful, I think I got it from her katong happy pako. I can't be strong for her na. I think she will be okay.
I want to eat with her as much as I can but honestly, wala nakoy gana mukaon. It's been over a month and magtago rako sa akong kwarto, cry into my comforter para dili madunggog. I hate leaving her to eat alone while magtago rako. I may not be able to eat with her puhon.
Situation: You hurt her to the point na she wants to end it all, called her a bunch of terrible names (she retaliated eventually) and when she cries or spirals, you tell her you're still "here" as a friend, that you'll listen. What for?
Maka anxious but nakabasa nako ug stories sa threads.