I hate vulnerability hangovers man •́ ‿ ,•̀
Seriously, I'm so grateful to have had atleast one friend to get me to the stage that I can actually open up to someone and be vulnerable for once instead of being the listener, especially as a guy.. But I genuinely feel so much worse about myself each and every time, and I really struggle to convince myself im actually worth anything to anyone and that I shouldnt just end it all so I dont have to over think the slightest conversation, and its been especially hard lately because I'm noticing that I'm distancing myself from them, I've cried about it so many times because I dont want to be distant and I really want to talk to them but they've honestly had it so much worse, and I dont feel like I have any right to dump everything onto them, It feels like such a sick joke that i want something only for my brain to turn around and tell me to go fuck myself about it.