21 m PIED
I am 21m with a gf of just about a year. I am insanely in love with her and I think she is incredibly beautiful. Unfortunately I have been struggling with a severe porn addiction for about 9 years (masturbating more than once a day). When we almost had sex for the first time my penis was completely limp. I then for the past year have been using gas station pills to make it so I can have sex with her, but I rarely finish. I can see how much it hurts her and I can’t keep hiding it from her. If I tell her she will leave me and it is not something I am open to. How do I combat this. I am still on my parents health insurance. They are very Christian and would not allow me to see a doctor or get any medication like Viagra. What is the best route I should take to recovery. I can’t keep hurting her like this. When I am able to get an erection from those pills, I barely BARELY finish.