How do I get some type of sex drive back?
The thought of sex just disgusts me. My husband is constantly touching, grabbing, groping, etc and I’m sure that has a lot to do with it. I have had long, extensive conversations with him about how I struggle with physical touch (ADHD) anyways and adding the nonstop touching makes me never want to hug, kiss, and never want sex. After almost 10 years together, I never want to have sex now. I go as far as sleeping in another room some nights just to not have to deal with the touching, him asking for sex, etc.
I’m not even sure how to break this cycle or if it can even be repaired? Part of me feels this is my fault for not giving in, but I also think he’s not being respectful of my boundaries or paying attention to what’s bothering me (touch). It truly breaks my heart because physical intimacy is so important in a marriage.