Being authentic. To be or not to be?
Hey I have somewhat of a brain game here, nothing too serious but I wanna see your take on it. Let's say you are not Jewish religiously anymore, but you are still involved in the community. You have either a job at one of those Jewish summer camps, or you work for the local shul, whatever it is. Now, going off of this idea in mental well-being that being your authentic self as much as possible is a key to being satisfied in life, would you say it is better to 'liberate' the image of yourself if wanted, and forego wearing a kippah, skirt, etc, even when there are social consequences.
I am asking this especially because I personally work for my local chabad with setting up stuff, but of course I am agnostic and could not care whether I wear a kippah. I usually put on a big rabbi nachman (yerushalayim) kippah since it doesn't fall of easily- I end up feeling like the most zionistic yid in the whole building even though I am agnostic lol. So in my case I do it over the fear of losing my job, being judged, or feeling ostracized. So I am just wondering, is it healthier in this world to forego such things like blending in just to survive? Or do you think it is a balancing act? For instance in much more extreme cases in this world we know blending in and being inauthentic was (or sadly still is) a real matter of survival.