u/Cute_Possession_1249

I have had disordered thoughts for as long as i remember, i developed bulimia at 14 and it kind of snowballed into EDNOS. At 16 it had fully consumed my life. Twitter might have been my ruin. I had a talk with my boyfriend yesterday and i realized the thoughts never go away no matter how much i eat. The thoughts just are easier to live with some days. And some days they eat me alive. I’m scared i will lose my boyfriend to this. I turn 21 in a month and i have tried to recover since 18. The problem is theres no more help for me to get. You can’t get the help you need in my country unless its a threat to your life. I guess i just am losing hope more and more each day. Just needed this out in the world.