Ashamed of skipping classes
Moved to another country about 6 months ago. Started a language course about a month ago. Twice a week, 1.5 hours each class. They record all of them so you can watch later. I have ARFID and lost a bunch of weight after moving because of no safe food here obviously. So I feel nauseous often, have headaches or just get dizzy or too tired a lot. Which makes me skip classes. But I still always watch records and do homework. And I can't get rid of the guilt and shame because a big part of learning is speaking and practicing you do in class. And I just feel like I don't seem serious about learning the language of the country I moved to. I feel stupid emailing them every time to tell them that I'm not feeling well today again. Like I'm just looking for an excuse. And every time they mention me on the class record I just want to quit or disappear or something because I'm so ashamed
I know I have a valid reason and I still study at home. But can't get rid of the feeling