PS : Bungie I swear to god, if you bring back the OG phoenix battle comp ornament, I will delete my entire vault and rebuild it from the ground up
I suppose I'm just writing this to vent a bit, it's very late and I can't sleep
I've always had a very tight knit group of close friends I've kept up with online, and through all of high school I had a girlfriend who made waking up for the day something to look forward to.
Right out of high school I joined the military, a decision that on the surface level has been great thus far, but mid way through tech school my girlfriend left me, no hard feelings on either end.
I suppose before I had just enough consistent social interaction that it simply never bothered me, but now that I live by myself I've come to realize just how bad my social anxiety is.
I get along perfectly fine with people at work, but other than that and gaming with my friends online I've been almost entirely isolated for over a year now.
I've sort of just conceded that I'm going to be alone for a very, very long time and I'm not sure where to even begin to crawl out of that hole.