I don’t know… I’m destined to be broken
I’m going to be blunt… I’m just a fuck up. I come from an odd/middling but crazy family. Some really bad fuck-ups. I’m supposed to be the successful one. Great job. High IQ. Yet I’m dumb as shit when it comes to finances and gambling. I’m a high earner… but I never developed personal financial skills, or even scarier - I just don’t care. I’m careless. I know the risks, I see the angles.
My saving grace is I don’t push it all the way… I make sure I have bills paid, mortgage, etc. money for traveling… but why do I continue to gamble even $400-$1000 a week? I know I have a problem and want to stop but I can’t. I know the odds. And when I lose a few hundred my competitive side takes over and always want to get it back… even though I actually do know it’s a trap.
Anyone else this fucked up?