3 years and nothing to show for it
Ever since starting college I feel like it’s been the most miserable experience of my life so far.
Currently a junior finishing up my third year in computer science and I don’t have anything worthwhile to show for it. My GPA (3.15) has been on a downward trajectory almost every year, I haven’t made any new friends/connections/networks, I don’t have any worthwhile experience or titles to put on my resume, can’t get a worthwhile job anywhere, and no matter how hard I try every spring semester always results in me failing a course.
It started promising, I used to be a relatively straight A student in high school and my first semesters in college went by very well. But ever since then every semester has just turned into a grueling struggle and no matter what I try, it always ends up with either a failed course, or just mediocre grades. I’m the only person I know at my school and I don’t do well meeting new people. I keep trying to go to meetings or student events but nothing really goes beyond that. I study regularly and consistently but it just ends up being useless.
After this spring, I just feel completely defeated and at a breaking point. I genuinely put in an huge effort this semester. Used resources, did extra credit where I could, got involved in a group project, pulled all-nighters almost every week, and yet, it ended up being useless as it’s been my worst performing semester so far even compared to other poor performing ones.
By now, I’m wondering if this major was even cut out for me to begin with and I can’t decide if I just continue and see what happens next, or roll back and look for another opportunity. I mostly chose computer science as when I was first enrolling it seemed like a promising field and it was something I had an interest in during high school. I don’t know if it’s the material being covered, the teaching style of the professors, or just an issue with me but every class related to my major has just been a complete struggle.
I keep getting told that these years are supposed to be the most fun I’ll have in my life and yet if this is what it’s been like for me, then what have I got to look forward to in the future.