u/DJ_Rat_Girl

Hi…. My hallucinations are getting worse they have been off and on but for the past two days I’ve been hearing demons. I’m religious. Christian.

They’ve been asking to enter my body and sometimes if I let my mind slip or have intrusive thoughts and answer yes then I feel it overtake me, nearly black out, and then I do the Lord’s Prayer and it goes away… it’s happened twice now. Nearly blacked out the other day while driving and had to pull over into a gym parking lot to do prayers. Really freaky… my boyfriend is telling me it’s not real.

My nurse practitioner wouldn’t see me today. My dad won’t answer my text. My mom is grieving the loss of a friend.

I don’t want to step away from Christianity i love it and it’s done me so good, but I’m bugging out, guys :( this happens every time I do anything religious… I just spin out.

I even have been taking my meds and see a therapist :( I’m on 30mg of olanzapine and a cocktail.

It all got triggered by scratches on boxes which I think are from what I know deep down inside are from my cat…

Pretty stressed out right now, had a falling out with a friend, looking for a job myself, the death of my mom’s friend really upset me as well even though I never met her…