r/schizoaffective

(wrote this while crying and made myself giggle)

I hope you guys are doing better than I am. And if you aren’t i’m sorry. REALLY sorry. And i’m always willing to chat.

I have to study for my midterms tomorrow and I’ve been super depressed and lethargic. Last week i was incredibly irritable. My environment reflects my emotional state so often. How i do EVERYTHING too. Disorganized and asymmetrical; constantly tipping from one end to the other trying to balance. Im hoping it is PMDD and that this will pass and that i don’t need to up or change meds again. anyway, thats me for now❤️

Enjoy your Sundays everyone.

Hey y'all, I write this tired out of my mind!! My husband had an episode, and I tried my best to keep calm under the circumstances. Instead of going straight to hospitalization, I was able to schedule a same day appointment at his clinic. After speaking with his psychiatrist, he's been rediagnosed. Care to take a guess what his new diagnosis is? Apparently, he is now schizoaffective bipolar subtype. I am somehow relieved because now his manic episodes make sense, and the psychosis that accompanies it also makes more sense. I feel guilty because I didn't see the signs, but I'm just glad he's on the mend and not on medicine that will harm him further. I also saw my nurse practitioner, and she has cleared me to work!!! I couldn't sleep last night, so I applied to a job and they got back to me today. They want to schedule a phone interview!!! I haven't worked in 3 years, so color me surprised that they still want to interview me. It's a part-time office job with a small company, which suits me just fine. Thanks for reading, and enjoy the rest of your weekend!!! Sometimes things don't go according to plan, but that doesnt mean something good won't come out of it!!

Literally trying to hold it together while loosing my shit. I’m cleaning out my old apartment (we just got it 4 months ago) because my kids moved up to where I am now due to unforeseen circumstances with their dad ending up in jail.

My life is falling apart pretty fast by the seams, not because of my kids I’d like to add. But my relationship with my husband (we just got married back in April) and everything else. It just feels like too much sometimes and I can’t take it. I am not quite where I was mentally when I was in a relationship with my kids dad, but I feel like idk I just feel not so much like a partner and more of a “super” wife/mother/caregiver etc.

It really sucks ass when you’re dealing with this thing in your head and going to school full time, working full time+on call, trying to be a good mom of three kids, good wife, and everything else that comes with everything.

So yea, next Sunday, I hope I’m back to smiles again for everyone, but this is as good as I can muster up this Sunday babes.

Sending all my love to you guys💕✨💖❤️‍🔥

In the ham shack!!

I’ve been at home for a few days now since therapy was canceled on Friday. And I’ve been wearing this mask and listening to music. I have been eating & taking my meds as prescribed so I’m actually doing okay. Dancing has helped the boredom and kept me active.