r/schizoaffective

I'm on the dating apps rn but it's rough. I either tell the person upfront and they ghost me or I try to wait but then when I'm struggling to form sentences or remember things after my evening meds they know something's wrong with me and then ghost. I just want to find my person 🥺.

I’m having a rough one today. Mood is very low. What are some things you do for yourself when the going gets tough?

Hello everyone,

how do you deal with exhaustion? For me it's very hard. I was very active, I loved to do sports or I was busy in the kitchen. Now, even leaving the house is hard. Actually, existing is hard.

Did you face the same problem? How did you manage it? Is there even a way? Has it affected your life in any way? I'm scared it will never get any better. How's your experience with it?

Hey! I've gained quite a bit of weight over the past couple of years, due to medication and overeating. I want to be at a healthy weight (I'm about 100 pounds overweight) but I have struggled in the past with severe restrictive eating and over-exercising, I believe due to my ocd for the most part. I want to incorporate more exercise and healthy diet in my life, but I don't quite know where to start. I want to see a dietitian/nutritionist to cover the healthy eating part, but I don't know where to start with exercise.

I struggle with motivation and starting/sticking to a routine. I also have exercise induced asthma that can trigger anxiety/panic attacks. I know exercise isn't a hopeless cause for me, even if it means I can't do marathon runs or anything like that. I want to focus on low impact exercise that helps me get to a healthier weight. I have to take care not to let exercise become a compulsion for me.

I was thinking strength-building exercises, walking, and yoga? I don't quite know how to turn that into a sustainable plan though. Any advice?

Does anyone have any advice on how to do things when dealing with avolition? Even when I have to do important things, like eat, do laundry, or keep going to my job, I’m not motivated enough to do anything about it, despite being a detriment to me. I haven’t found any meds to help me with it ( I tried Cobenfy, but had a bad reaction to the medicine). Right now, I can’t hold down a job and am trying to find ways to make money at home (to no avail). Not sure disability is an option for me at the moment. If anyone has any advice for me, I’d appreciate it.

hi i am going through an episode and i feel like words stick to me and i have no boundaries with other people in my psychic space. i feel like im always surveyed in my mind and its driving me crazy. i dont know what to do. i texted my psychiatrist and i dont know if i need to change my antipsychotics to a different type. this episode has lasted a month or so. i got prescribed clonazepam but i ran out. i feel scared all the time. i feel like i can't breathe without harming people and things i love. i don't know what im allowed to do. if anybody wants to talk i really need friends and support right now

Context:
A little less than a year ago, I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, unspecified. It was later specified as depressive type. The “bizarre” behavior that was present during the initial psychosis is now managed by medication, however, I now struggle with social withdrawal due to sporadic communication issues (freezing mid conversation, losing train of thought, etc.) I am also hesitant to meet new people out of concern that they won’t want to stick around due to my diagnosis and circumstances. All things considered, I understand that it’s better to have minimal communication than none at all.

I recognize that isolation isn’t healthy for anyone. I want to be able to thrive socially, academically, and in the workplace. I know everyone has their limits.. I’m just trying to find mine without feeling immense grief.

I’ll be 23 later this year. I don’t want to spend my life hiding from the world.

If anyone has suggestions for support groups specifically for schizoaffective disorder, please let me know.

It's 3am and I'm sitting in the hospital with my daughter waiting for her to be transferred to an inpatient facility again. Luckily the pills she took didnt hurt her physically. You'd think I'd be better at dealing with this. I've been suicidal plenty and in the psych ward 4 times myself. But I dont know how to help my child. I feel powerless and I feel to blame. We are supporting her best we can. Better than we ever got growing up and struggling. I had to wait until I was 18 to get help. I just hope things get better soon. It huurts so much watching my child struggle with mental health issues. I hope i can do better and get her through this.

Good evening, (or morning but I'm writing this at 3:53 AM and morning is 4 I think) I was just curious if anyone else has to deal with these specific issues and happens to have strategies to cope?

I never really sleep more then a total of 5 hours a night in segmented periods. However when I'm in a manic phase I could go days without. If I feel like I'm awake when sleeping and have horrible dreams anyways, I start to think, 'What's the point in sleeping?'.

If anyone can reccomend ways to make myself tired or relaxed that work for them and have similar issues, I'd appreciate it. Thanks!

Just today, everything is alright in life. Day is not too busy, weather is good, all relationships are good.

But I'm bankrupt with energy.

I feel it's cruel if you do the same as everyone else and really lucky that life is good, the reality is that the deep claws of antipsychotics imprison happiness.

Just a dull receptacle

I have the above mentioned disorder and I have two minds when it comes to my paranoid delusions. One side of my brain is rational and logical and knows its not real and is a delusion. The other side is locked in and can not be shaken from the idea that the delusion is real. Am I just delusional and self aware at the same time? Anyone else experience this?

I always had low self esteem. When I got sick I blamed the illness.

But now I'm not sure

Does anyone have good or bad self esteem?

I keep trying to explain to my therapist that it is possible to maintain a degree of insight while manic/psychotic. It doesn’t take away from how it feels or the actions you execute on because of it. This disorder single-handedly destroyed my life.

Today I explained that there were many plans I didn’t execute on years ago when I was in psychosis because I lacked the executive function (due to a TBI amongst other things) to do so. Being psychotic or manic doesn’t automatically make that not an issue anymore because it’s very neurological. Anyway, she tried to explain this away by saying that I have “protective parts” that know better and because of them, I don’t execute. This isn’t true. She also knows at this point that I don’t like the whole parts work stuff. Never once have I went along with the parts stuff. I’ve told her directly that I don’t jive with it for many reasons.

Otherwise, she’s been good to me and I’d like to keep her around. Is there any way for me to get her to see my perspective?

My work requires little time. Ive said i want to do other stuff but i waste time instead.

I've been on Olanzapine, and can't afford to stay on the Wegovy to keep the weight off that I gained. Did anyone have success switching to another AP and losing the Olanzapine weight without going on a GLP1? Its a shame becuase I like Olanzapine for its work on my anxiety and sleep, but I frankly don't want to live overweight so must switch. Aripiprazole gave me akathisia. I live in the UK so Lybalvi isn't available. Metformin 500mg isn't touching my appetite. Thanks in advance for your experience!

I have command hallucinations that want me to kill three specific people. They won’t stop urging me to do it. They have all these reasons why I *must* do it and ways I’ll be punished if I refuse. I’m so scared I’m going to do something I can never take back.

I went to the emergency room, waited all night (was there like fifteen hours) and was discharged after speaking to an ER doctor, a psych nurse, and finally a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist agreed to increase my olanzapine from 12.5 to 15, which is a huge relief, as my treating psychiatrist won’t raise it at all due to weight issues. She actually keeps trying to wean me off it, even though it’s the only antipsychotic I’ve responded to (veteran of Seroquel, Geodon, Abilify oral, Abilify Maintena), she just keeps increasing my Maintena in the hopes of eventually weaning me off olanzapine entirely so I’ll lose weight. I’m open to losing weight, but I’m a little bit indifferent. I just want to stop living with voices.

But I told the doctor I didn’t feel like I could keep myself or other people safe, and pretty much begged her to admit me for a day or two while the increased olanzapine started working. She refused and gave me a taxi chit to go home. I don’t really feel like my concerns are being addressed, when I know where these people who I’m being ordered to hurt live.

I used to watch shows like breaking bad, better call Saul and walking dead, but I don't enjoy these shows anymore. Ever since I got diagnosed these shows put me in a depressed mood and make me upset. Is this because of schizoaffective disorder, or did my taste in shows just change?

So me and my fiancee both of us are 23 and have been together for 5 years. We've been through a lot, they got breast cancer at 19 and were diagnosed with schizoaffectve disorder in April of this year. They just started therapy for it. To give some context my fiancee was abused from at least the age of 13 by their step mom. I on the other hand was abused from childhood till I was 16 when I was able to move in with my grandparents. Now me and my fiancee have been together since senior year of highschool. Like I said we went through cancer together. They are currently on depakote and ambilafy. I take some meds for my mental conditions but I don't think it really matters. I know we need a little bit of space but I have no where to go we live with their parents. I don't have any friends I didn't really have friends before we got together and I've recently had a fallout with the few i did have my own Fault not theirs. Like I said I have no where to go I don't feel unsafe they've never made me feel like that. Worried for their safety sure but not my own. Right now we're having problems with their depakote they take it 2 a day and we can't get anymore as of right now till September 9th and they have been without for 6 days now. I think the cracker situation was just because all of the stress got to them