Just today, everything is alright in life. Day is not too busy, weather is good, all relationships are good.
But I'm bankrupt with energy.
I feel it's cruel if you do the same as everyone else and really lucky that life is good, the reality is that the deep claws of antipsychotics imprison happiness.
Just a dull receptacle
I always had low self esteem. When I got sick I blamed the illness.
But now I'm not sure
Does anyone have good or bad self esteem?
I think everyone loved playing Ratchet and Clank growing up and when challenge mode arrived and the chance to upgrade further it was another wave of delight.
I personally find the hypnotic, shoot, dodge and
I don't feel a desire to replay Rift Apart. I don't know why, maybe the soft sentimentality.
So I was wondering do you think Rift Apart, if it can be isolated, is it superior gameplay wise?
Replaying, want to speed up the game during grinding and maybe cutscenes
How is your memory since getting the illness?
Did it improve? How has it changed?
Can you learn foreign languages? Can you track characters in books? Can you remember the name of people you meet?
How is your memory honestly?
Sometimes feel there is a barrier of strangulation when trying to push to next level. Throttled
Bought a house. Got a job. Engaged. But the step of having a baby I've no idea how I can possibly cope?
I'm male. My parents are far away and old.
How the hell do you have a baby? I don't know how my future wife can cope and how to support her.
Advice appreciated
I want to escape
Removing graphics or up to date rosters.
What's the best Football manager or Championship manager to just get addicted to the game on a steak deck?
I'm after experiencing fast thoughts a couple of weeks ago and moved from 7.5mg olanzapine to 12.5mg.
I worked hard yesterday and today I feel so drained and bad.
I'm looking for a mortgage so I can't take sick days.
I suppose from your experience when you feel bad... What do you do? How can you relieve the misery?
Play soccer twice a week
Like movies in ifi or lighthouse
Keep in touch with school friends and college friends
Don't drink
Engaged
Working professional
Based Ranegh
Message me if you want to chat and see if it'd suit to meet for a coffee. No pressure but no reason not to.
This leads to erratic behaviour. Rehabilitation is unknown. CBT to treat anxiety, therapy to nurse sadness, medication to blunt distress.
We just suffer, that's what life is destined for us.
But how to change your identity and self esteem so that you are no longer dismissed and can recreate a happier identity.
I think we all felt stripped by psychosis. And becoming high functioning takes a lot of support, effort and consistency. And still a danger lurks that if you don't protect yourself and medicate correctly, the illness can reoccur.
But a hidden cost I found, you get so many bad habits, apologising too much, not having confidence to stand your ground, lack of belief in achieving things.
The way we cope to survive becomes our way of living
It's just an invisible cost not in the medical trials
When I become unwell I obsess in my mind trying to understand confidence, power and hierarchies
I hyper analyse all words and try see the power structure and intent behind those words
Recently I've been seeing so much more clarity but even the fact I think these things mean one thing, the illness is working
Does anyone else obsess over some version of power?
I recently had fast thoughts. I upped my antipsychotics and it took a few days but I settled.
After another week I tried reducing slightly my antipsychotics
I started to feel sad and a sense of dread. I upped my antipsychotics again.
I have no more sick days and very few annual leave for the year.
I just feel so miserable, burnt out and unwell. And this underlying sense of dying.
It's tough because I have to turn up for work but I'm barely hanging in there