CONFESSION OF A FOODIE SLUT: The Food Aversion Thing Is a Real Mind Fuck. 🧠🔩😵💫
This is long but maybe someone can relate. If not, I apologize in advance for the time suck.
Let me start off by saying that I‘ve read about food aversion on these forums and logically understand what it means and how to deal with it in terms of getting enough nutrients.
That said, I‘ve always been a big old food slut.
I was born into a Southern family of food sluts.
Food is our love language for all occasions.
For years, I’ve thrown dinner parties, cooked multiple dishes for days in advance, planned themed menus, drawn out seating charts, planned after -dinner games, the ambient music, lighting and all the things... I’m not a caterer or anything, we just like to have friends over and it’s been a way to build our neighborhood community and work friendships as well.
my husband is an amateur but amazing mixologist and has become a bit of a legend amongst our social circle. He researches/experiments and crafts signature cocktails for our events 😜.
I know; “bougie as fuck”, we are.
Sorry not sorry. 🤷🏻♀️😬
I teach occasional private wine tasting classes and we built a backyard wood-fired pizza oven (no Oonies here…it’s a brick beast we named Gretal 😬) last summer and pizza dough has been an obsession….(Vito Lacopelli is a Pizza Dough Lord!!).
So I’ve gained a lot of weight over the last few years. Yes, from lifestyle and menopause. I’m an old crone with few fucks left to give in some ways. lol
Except for my increasing weight and my changing body. It’s making the things I enjoy doing not as easy to do.
I’ve resisted GLP’s even though I’ve seen friends lose a lot of weight on them, Ive been pretty terrified of taking them due to stories about terrible nausea and worse.
I recently visited my sister in law for the first time in over a year and was sort of shocked at her transformation. She’s on Wegovy and has lost over 70lbs. She looks stunning.
I was a little jealous of her cute jeans and her newly shaped butt. Maybe it was the jeans, but she looked great. ❤️
I also noticed how little she ate during a sitting and how she was not focused on food or the next great restaurant to take us to. The behavior/mental differences in her were noticeable and not in a negative way.
I decided to give it a try. I chose compounded tirzepatide from Eden since I’ve used them for other things.
I really need to lose this weight — it’s affecting my body and to some degree my mobility/flexibility since I am also recovering from a spinal fusion 6 months ago and healing is still going on.
Three weeks in, very low dose to start and only recently titrated up. Not a lot of scary side effects but what I have noticed is that the food noise is gone to a great degree. Thats very new for me.
But last night….I made grilled ahi tuna steaks, baked sweet potato and a plain baby spinach salad with only a bit of lemon/olive oil.
I could barely eat it. I was basically forcing myself to eat a tiny amount of just the tuna and spinach. No sweet potato at all.
And it was delicious. Husband devoured his.
And I didn’t care. 😳
TAKE AWAYS:
Positive:
Ok I can probably do this and lose weight and feel amazing physically and wear all the clothes I’ve not been able to fit into for the last several years….and feel attractive, and not obsess over all the cooking and experimenting I’ve been doing for the last few years…(food “projects”).
Negative:
I love to cook and I love feeding people and making amazing meals (yes, they can be elaborate and my “everyday“ is oftentimes other people’s “special occasion“). I miss the excitement of planning our next party with friends and planning what to serve or what class to teach next (focaccia/pizza/vegan cheese/wine)…
I also know that I don’t have to force myself to give those things up forever, but the “joy” that I got from those things feels very muted. If that makes sense.
It feels like new territory and it’s liberating as fuck. For the first time in my life I am doing other things besides thinking about food.
I cook simple low-carb meals that my husband is also benefiting from since he needs to lose a little weight as well. But he also notices the lack of interest in food from me.
it’s weird.
Last nights food aversion was a real eye opener for me.
It’s like I’m sitting here thinking of how to fill the “foodie thought” gaps now.
I realize that it’s not just the weight loss itself that comes from taking this medicine, it’s a whole change (shift?) in my personal psychology and what drives me in my social life and things I’m passionate about.
I don’t think I was prepared for that part and currently I’m just riding this out to see what will happen. It’s all very new experiences and feelings.
I’m excited to lose weight and see where this journey goes.
Just my thoughts.
And if you got this far, then bless your heart. ❤️