u/DallasLaxMom

This morning as I woke up I did a meditation in my half sleep and my vision was so beautiful. I was living my life with everything that I could ever dream of happening happened in this vision. I was in a beautiful house with my SP living with me and we were getting married, my kids and his kids were settling well into the new life. I had everything I ever wanted in life. I cried I was so happy and content. My morning was peaceful and happy and then this afternoon I did another session of mediation but I just did one where I relaxed and thought of nothing. When I went back to work, I got a report and it just collapsed everything that I was feeling this morning. I told myself I am OK and just to keep moving it was just a report but I have started to feel sad. I have to listen to something to help me relax and change my mindset. But I almost felt like my brain is registering my meditation is not real. The reversal is something that I am working on but how do I handle situations like this where I can recognize the feelings but not change the frequency that I am now trying to embody?