I have had two other posts here on the same issue, (Quick recap unless you want to look at my posts) A young friend moved from a series of bad relationships to live with me in my home. I supported her fully gave her everything she needed a family and more monetary things as well then when it came time for her to kick in and get another job she suddenly left ghosted my friend group, ghosted me, proceeded to move in with a guy across the country.
My Birthday was on the 25th. I am far too old to be hurting like this. I had been working very hard to clear the decks when it came to Blackheart (The girl in question). I have come to accept she has blocked me and ghosted me everywhere, all socials, gaming sites, friend groups. I am ok with that. She still promises she will pay me the $2,000 she owes me and had signed an agreement on, I know she wont. But I let her be I left her alone her running time for new places tends to be about three or four months. I spoke with her family and her former housemates who have all told me I dodged a bullet and told me to cut her off fully. I stupidly did not do so. I felt obligated to keep helping her so I let her keep the phone line I am paying for and not putting the money she owed me to collections, in my eyes it was what a friend would do. That was all fine until recently a friend found her on Facebook. She is on his since she was on mine and never changes her name. He lives in the state she now resides in. She is now engaged (After two months).
I figured good for her not my place to keep her back, we were not romantic. My birthday rolls around and I get messages from my friends many of whom I never speak to anymore. It is the one time I like to feel a bit special the only time I ever want someone to dote on me. I let the day go by and I know deep down she will not message me. I start to feel low about it all. One of my weekly things is I go to Mcdonalds for breakfast on Sunday morning when they open. This was something Blackheart and I would do together, I got mad....then I got sad. When I got home I ate and was upset, I was reading my birthday messages when I saw one about her phone. She had recently picked up a new Sim Card (Not sure what that is for) and been on some suspicious websites. I snapped.
Rather than call her and yell at her for wounding me so deeply I closed the final door. If I am blocked and she and I are no longer friends why am I supposed to pay for your phone? A quick phone call today and her phone is suspended to be canceled. She won't be able to come back and hurt me again she won't prey on my kindness anymore. I am a kind man I will give my friends my everything. I would have given her more, I loved her. Perhaps I am jealous perhaps I am just sad I dont want to be with her. But I am not going to support someone who has done nothing but hurt me. My friends who told me to do it sooner are calling me petty now. Fuck em! I feel I can be selfish now.
I hope I don't regret all of it.