And I do mean all is welcome. I just wanna discuss this.
Alright so I’m 30-ish and I’ve been an on-and-off witch since I was 15. Haven’t practiced in 5 years. Recently had a major spiritual awakening where I spoke to my late mother during an unexpected divination session that put itself right when and where it needed to happen and I’ve been back in practice since. Two-three weeks, give or take. I’ve mostly just been re-learning and realigning myself spiritually to be more effective in my rituals, manifestation, and spellwork. You know bow that works.
Anyhoo. I am notorious for my sad and shitass luck. I did a cleanse and had to kill an entity (previous servitor that never went dormant) that’s been feeding off me for the past 6 years or so. I’ve been more… “clear” since. I dont know who or what they are, but the spirits that actually like me have been communicating with me more clearly through my intuition and that’s fuckin great and everything BUT… I. Am. Still. Stuck. Where. I. Am.
Bit of background: I live with my family. my whole family’s a bunch of leeches. I don’t hate them, but truth has to be said. They’ve always been bad *for me*. And I cannot escape. I cant leave. I have been manifesting and casting spells to get me the fuck outta this house and things have been budging where they seemed eternally sealed in, but I need out. I need out so bad. That feeling has been dormant for a very long time and came back almost immediately with my recent spiritual awakening. Or re-awakening.
There are risks if I just go the causal route and straight up leave. I’m financially unstable, my culture is… something. (I’d face risk of actual death if it was discovered that I renounce god and the culture). I can’t announce cutting them off before leaving, and I can’t leave on just any terms. I realized that my recent awakening happened for at least one main reason. To survive, to heal, and then to thrive, I need to use my spiritual power to extract myself from the environment. I do not know how to go about it.
Further context: I’m a chaos witch. I incorporate art into my rituals and spell work. I don’t work with any deities. I do not wish to harm my family. Worst I’d want for them is to return the darkness they continuously cast unto me.
TIA, witches. Luv & blessings