u/DangerousJellyG

I just got home from a date with a super sweet guy, 19M. He's great, but he does not intrigue me the way I hoped it would. When I was 14 years old, I fell in love with a different guy, who is currently 20. We fell in love hard. He was the only thing I really cared about. To me, the best way I can explain it is if you told me I needed to summit mount Everest or jump into a freezing lake to keep it, I would do it. Perhaps, it was limerence. But I still love him today. He was and still is a bit immature. Especially when it comes to our difference in social class, and what that means for his parents being okay with me, etc. He broke my heart at 16, and It was a really deep pain that even when I think about it today. it stings a bit. We still talk sometimes, and it even can get a bit physical. but its obvious to me. He thinks hes bad for me, he wants me to be happy. So I go on date with new golden retreiver guy, 19M. We go to the same college, have close friengroups. But hes just not that intresnting. I feel so awkard about it, and I just wish I could be with the other guy. I know hes bad for me, but I love him. I dont think I can love someone else, I dont think Ill love someone the way I loved him. I dont know if I should keep seeing this new guy, or try to make things work with my previous boyfriend. I like the 19M guy, he cares about me and does nice things for me, but Its not that burning heat feeling. How do I improve these relationships?