Having a partner while im schizophrenic
Not really looking for advice or anything here just want to vent a little. I’ve been dating my girlfriend for a little while now and she’s aware I have schizophrenia and everything but I don’t really feel like she fully grasps that all the time maybe in part because I do feel like I really put in effort to be functioning. When we are together everything’s great but almost all the time when im alone I get hit with thoughts/voices in my head that sound like her and other people basically telling me how stupid I am to believe she wouldn’t be cheating on me and the other guy she’s with right now is much better than me for these specific reasons that cut to the core of me etc etc. I even get delusions of her actually doing sexual things with other people and not gonna lie it gets to me pretty bad. Obviously I have similar negative thoughts all the time but im typically able to ignore or blow those off a lot easier. For some reason these just really get to me sometimes and it’s even manifested in me being skeptical of her and asking to go through her phone and stuff and makes me feel terrible because she’s not actually given me any reason to distrust her. Just really fuckin sucks and I really pray that this doesn’t ultimately end up destroying the relationship over something that isn’t even real. Has anyone else dealt with anything similar?