How do you stay hopeful when it feels like the odds are stacked against you?
Quick background, I’m 28 and currently 10 weeks pregnant as a gestational surrogate and I have a 19 month old. I graduated college back in December of 2023 with my bachelors in psychology, and I’ve worked in the ABA field the last 2.5 years and I’ve also worked as a home health aide for a little over a year as a second job. I got injured back in February and quit my job in ABA, finally made up my mind I wanted to go back to school to become an RN as I kept putting it off due to finances, My senior year of college is when I wanted to change my major to nursing originally but my university denied my request since I had to many credits. Oh well that’s how I got into my current situation.
My goal is to try and complete all my required prerequisites for my community college nursing program by the end of the year. Which basically consists of anatomy, physiology, microbiology, chemistry, nutrition, sociology, and a public speaking class. I took several of these classes when I was pursuing my bachelor’s degree although a lot of my credit unfortunately did not transfer over. Anyway I’m currently taking two classes sociology and intermediate algebra. Although my intermediate algebra professor seems to have a vendetta against me. I have never been late submitting an assignments or missed a deadline, plus I have attended class regularly on zoom. This is a 8 week block course so it’s very intense and fast paced. I told my professor at the beginning of the block class that I was currently pregnant and dealing with awful morning sickness. He’s been very hostile towards me with passive aggressive comments that my pregnancy isn’t an excuse to be lazy or that I should be rethinking my priorities. Obviously I haven’t told this man I’m a gestational surrogate as that is none of his business but I’m super stressed that he’s going to fail me or tank my grade down to a C. I’m barely sitting at a 87% right now. I have reported him for discrimination but my college disability services haven’t done anything about it.
I just feel so discouraged right now because I need to pass this math class in order to move onto chemistry for this summer but I’m worried this bias man is going to fail me because he doesn’t like pregnant college students. Plus I’m also trying to look for a part time job and that’s a whole other issue I’m having because job market sucks. Idk if anyone else is facing similar stresses whether it be school or finances, how do you keep yourself motivated?